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Ashu001

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hey guys, i am 23 year old from nz. i first watched porn at the age of 18 and that was also the first time i ever masturbate. I have been addicted to porn since then.  i didn't turn to porn because of any thing serious. that was all fun and pleasure. i have tried many things to stop it from happening again and again.
The maximum i ever been without porn is 45 days which was last year in 2018. during the rebooting i slept with this chick, sex was awesome but getting dopamine after a while made my brain craving for more. after that incident i been masturbating twice in a week some time in 2 week. usage of porn has decreased lots, i remember in starting that was pretty much everyday but now its not often. i managed to control myself somehow. i kinda think of porn as a fast food. i dont like fast food, so why would have something that you dont like. but sometime when you really horny, its hard to control yourself. but lately i am consuming it a lot. its been my year resolution to go with out it for 45 days but i relapsed on 19th jan. On that day i was trying to have sex but i cant get myself up,so to make myself happy i watched porn and there was me hard again and jerk myself to porn.
video games are my trigger though. if i play them too much, somehow i ended up watching porn. NO MORE VIDEO GAMES!!!

i also read in one of the journal, dont think of quitting porn. as your mind always does that what you dont want to. for example, try not to think about snake, first thing that will come are snakes. instead of that thinking, try to control your mind, do some other physical activity that produce dopamine or any other happy chemical.
if any one looking for the partner to do this together, pls get in touch. we can all help each other making our life more fulfill.

any support will be valuable for you guys and tips pls.

As of 21th jan(1/45), im feeling normal, there was little urge to watch porn but i managed it some
how.
 

Ashu001

Member
(2/45)
today i had the oral sex. i was semi erect but it felt so good anyhow. i was thinking of doing only pm but i think its better if i do PMO.
Today's motivation
you cant change the past but you have the power to change your future.
be active guys, go outside.
 

Ashu001

Member
Decaptare said:
Good luck, man. It is good you have someone to real contact by the way
ya man i think that both good and bad. you can feel performance anxiety sometime but will get over it.
 

Ashu001

Member
(3/45) i almost watched porn today instead of going to gym. but i came here instead. Feeling good after reading some forms.i know i can do this but little temptation of missing through the stuff is real. one should always remember they are fake and not what you want for your future self.
 

Ashu001

Member
(4/45)
Day went really smooth. I think it was only becoause I was being really active . There were some constant urge to Pmo especially when I see someone with nice bum but I manage somehow. I think there are temptations for normal people as well but they don?t go masturbate to all of them. Instead they admire the beauty of the butt and move on lol all went good today. Keep it coming!!
 

Ashu001

Member
(5/45)
Only 40 days left yay. Pretty much work and gym. That all happened. No thinking about pm at all. I think 2nd and 3rd week will be hard for sure. Keep it coming
 

BlueHeronFan

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Ashu001 said:
(5/45)
Only 40 days left yay. Pretty much work and gym. That all happened. No thinking about pm at all. I think 2nd and 3rd week will be hard for sure. Keep it coming

Keep up the good progress! I know I usually have more trouble during the second or third week without PMO. But you're building the foundation now. Every day is a day in the right direction
 

Ashu001

Member
Thanks man! I really appreciate you taking time to support me. I will not going to let myself and people who support me down. Thanks
 

Ashu001

Member
(6/45)
all went good. No urges at all. I did get erection few times in a day. That was about it. Next week going to be challenging. Looking forward for it.
 

Ashu001

Member
(7/45)
Everything was nice except when I was coming home from work. I saw so many nice girls. I was turned on really wanted to PM. But over the year fighting with this addiction, I learnt to not forget what we are fighting for. So, I ended up taking couple of deep breaths. I was completely fine after that.
Go one day at a time.
 

BlueHeronFan

Respected Member
Ashu001 said:
(7/45)
Everything was nice except when I was coming home from work. I saw so many nice girls. I was turned on really wanted to PM. But over the year fighting with this addiction, I learnt to not forget what we are fighting for. So, I ended up taking couple of deep breaths. I was completely fine after that.
Go one day at a time.

Nicely done--I admire your resolve and the way that you look forward to the challenge. I could definitely learn to face this addiction with more confidence than fear.
 

Ashu001

Member
Ya you should over come  this fear. I do lot of things to make me feel confident. Firstly, walk tall with your shoulder wide it boost your confidence. Shake hand with full grip, again increased confidence. Keep on updating your journal everyday. This will work as your backup if you ended feeling too horny. You can come and look at all the support people give here to each other.
 

Ashu001

Member
(8/45)
Today was an awesome day really hot here in nz. I didn?t had any sexual thoughts which is a plus point. I tried to wake up early for the gym but I think I?m too lazy for that but I?ll wake up early tomorrow for sure. Remember guys, we are quitting porn and making ourself better in the process. It?s a win win situation. Looking forward for tomorrow.
 

Ashu001

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day 9 and day 10/45

hey guys these days being extremely high. light headache. urge to watch porn and masturbate is strong. somehow i am keeping myself in control. i dont feel like doing anything but i will go to gym to distract myself. i almost hired the escort for the sex so i dont have to watch porn but i didnt at the end. i wanna do hard core mode NO PMO, i'll achieve it no matter what happen. i looked at the explicit video for 20 sec maybe but i switched immediately.
i dont wanna relapse for two reason. first, its now and never. second, i am doing it for myself and people who follow me on this journey. my mind playing lots of tricks. my face is red and extremely horny but ill get through it. the addiction will not stay with me for forever.
keep going guys, we can all do this together.
 

BlueHeronFan

Respected Member
First of all, congrats on the continued progress!

Second of all, be really careful with these urges. They're usually the sign for me that things are going wrong in a hurry because it's all over once they take over. Stay strong, friend. And, I guess, think about what you can do whenever you feel triggered. Like, when you feel like watching porn, find something else to do--and then build a new habit or a new response to that trigger.

Together, we've got this!
 

Ashu001

Member
yes man im indeed working on the new hobbies. reading book and workout. it is getting nice as time pass by. im not avoiding any trigger but trying to understand why they causing it. i will solve this mystery once for all. i just dont feel like watching porn at the end. thanks for your support man.
 

Ashu001

Member
day 11 and 12/45
Feeling blue in the morning but it got better. overall both the days were nice and simple. i did have a wet dream. i ended up making mess in my bed but i guess its just the process i have to go through. i did have the urge to M on 11th day but i made it go away some home. so its been 12 days without P and 10 without masturbation. so far so good.
 

Ashu001

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day 13 and 14/45
I worked yesterday and working today aswell. So not really have time to do any PMO. Yay. There were no urges either. I did ended up sleeping with a girl last night. I was semi erect. I couldn?t able to get fully erect. I think I need to fix that psychologic in my brain. I knew I could get full hard on but my brain were keep on thinking about side effects of porn. I explained her everything, she understood everthing. We ended up focusing everything on her. I gave her oral and all sorts of other stuff.
I have PIED, I had cured it before but because of old habit it has come back but will disappear again .
For some reason I didn?t end up watching porn or feeling sad for me. My mind did trick me to watch porn to see if I can still get it up. Nice one brain! Maybe in another life.
Thanks for your support guys. It?s been 2 weeks now.
 
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