WoundedSparrow
Active Member
I've attempted a reboot several times over the course of the past year. As an addict going on 6 years, I'm proud to say it's been my most productive year ever. However, I'm afraid that I still have far to go before I'm capable of reaching 90 days. I've only ever lasted a total of 5 weeks and in my experience, the first 2 are when the brain fights tooth and nail to reclaim me back into porn addiction. After that, it's usually smooth sailing. I feel better, more alert and charismatic. Cravings are easier to manage. I'm not foggy or lethargic. I almost feel like I did before porn. Then around the 1 month mark, I always seem to suffer intense cravings that overwhelm me and drive me back into a spiral of abuse. After relapsing once, it usually takes several weeks or even months before I'm able to go a full week without porn again.
I'm here asking those of you who have successfully made it past 30 days what your experiences are after that point. I can prepare myself for intense cravings, but I have no clue what to expect after that point. I realize we all recover differently but many of our symptoms of both abuse and withdrawal are shared. I want to brace myself so I don't get knocked on my ass by things I never saw coming.
I'm here asking those of you who have successfully made it past 30 days what your experiences are after that point. I can prepare myself for intense cravings, but I have no clue what to expect after that point. I realize we all recover differently but many of our symptoms of both abuse and withdrawal are shared. I want to brace myself so I don't get knocked on my ass by things I never saw coming.