They Are Using You

Hello everyone,

I just relapsed and what I want to do right now is unload some of the stuff that is bouncing around in my mind right now.

First of all, know that this habit and addiction are really hard to quit.  As I have stated in my journals, I am a porn addict and a recovering alcoholic and I can tell you that alcohol is much easier to kick than a porn and masturbation addiction.  I have failed in this PMO reboot so many times.  I can count my alcohol relapses on one hand (over a ten year period).  Alcoholism is no joke, but at least I can say it has been easy to overcome compared to PMO.

But back to what I wanted to talk about.

You, as a porn addict are being used.  Your brain is being rewired , you are being preyed upon, by the companies that make porn, by the porn creators on Reddit and other apps. 

But more than that, you are an enabler.  As much as you are screwing yourself over and letting yourself be slapped around, you are more often than not enabling creators to spiral ever further in their own downward spiral of abuse.

I did so,etching after this latest relapse that I sometimes do.  I forced myself to look at the Reddit models and creators again after I finished.  When I was done with my own addiction I took another look.

What I saw shocked me. 

Do it yourself next time.  Hopefully there isn?t a next time.  Hopefully you keep on marching ever forward.  But if there is and you find yourself acting out, take a minute after the fact and go back and look at those images and videos again, as someone who is momentarily sober.

Those people aren?t happy.  They aren?t healthy.  They are mentally ill.  Drug and a,cohoe abuse in porn is ubiquitous.  It comes with the territory, somewhat ironically.  For a profession that can?t shut up about being empowering for women, a lot of those women seem to have a hard time staying sober.  Just saying. 

If you are like me and transferred over to sharing sites like Reddit and Imgur, than take a minute to look at the faces of the models after your relapse.

Do those girls (and I do mean girls) look happy?  Do they look healthy.  These young women are sick.  They feed off of attention.  They have been told all their lives that attention from men is a currency, the only one that matters.  They desperately post those images, celebrating themselves as empowered, independent women, who don?t need no man.

That sort of behavior is not healthy.  It is not an example of mental stability.

Mentally healthy people do not need people to drool at pictures of their body.  Strong, healthy people with solid self esteem do not need to be validated.

By satisfying your addiction you are enabling theirs and helping to prevent their own recovery.

These are just a few of my thoughts.  Now I am going to get back to my own recovery.

Thanks for listening.

Rich

I know I can always count on your posts to be thoughtful and original!

I agree.  I had similar experiences with the cam sites.  With a sober eye you realize that these girls are acting, realistically not making much money, and in some cases are there because men have them there.  I even have one memory of someone tipping for pants to be removed... she stands, has trouble getting her pants off, and you see a pair of man's hands come in from off camera to yank them off for her.  Horny young women in their bedrooms making extra money at night for college books?  I don't think so.  Exploitation plain and simple.  That was an extreme example, but many seem incredibly bored just sitting there for hours.  Lots of obvious acting, that strange euphoria that likely only lasts a little bit before they slump back into depression.  I agree that getting those porn goggles off is how you can stop yourself from being so euphoric.

Here's a great article linking porn and sex trafficking.Helps you understand the orgasmic pleasure being portrayed is fake!!!!

https://fightthenewdrug.org/by-the-numbers-porn-sex-trafficking-connected/

It's not just that we are being used.

Right now addictions are being promoted and legalized. Gambling is being legalized, Marijuana is being legalized, and Porn is everywhere for free, at high speed. There are even so-called "safe sites" where people are allowed to do hard drugs. The people already lack self-control, yet the media is constantly encouraging more people to get addicted. The end result of legalizing addictions obvious. The less self-control the citizens have, the easier they are controlled by a corrupt government, and the less accountable corrupt governments must be to their citizens.

You don't like what's happening in politics? Go smoke some weed and stop complaining!