It got hard. I don't know what to say, I feel like I change my personality. I feel that I should say I am ashamed. I really don't know what happens. First, I felt alone. Then, I got scared I would see pornography. Second, my mind starts to produce images of pornography I watch before. Finally, I got tempted that I masturbated. Literally, I don't know what happens. After I did that I fail by my own again. I really need help. This why I join because this is how I fail each time. And after this happens, a few days later I watch porn which I am scared that will happen. Guys, I am afraid. I really don't know what is happening to my brain. I can't control anymore when I get tempted. I literally did nothing today but shower and eat my meals. Today I dream about being in my childhood house. This was very weird because mostly everyone who I knew from school started showing there. So soon I went to the room I use to sleep because I was embarrassed for them to see the weird design looking house and I lived beyond poverty. When I enter, out of no where it was an auditorium. Then, everyone started getting in soon I had a librarian. She was showing us fishes with spikes which we were touching weirdly enough I didn't think about safety. I was close with someone I met at a party that I never saw again. Then, everything turns into a video game that we run and it is hard to control my body to move on. In the end, the villain turns out to be Thanos weirdly enough. My question for today is how can we not feel not alone?
Sincerely Braved118
Sincerely Braved118