Viper..glad you liked the lowlife reference..I'm quite the character.I'm the dude who walks in the room and everyone goes "hide,because he's gonna break our balls and pick at our flaws".I don't take myself to seriously...but this porn shit has got me worried.After rebooting a few times I kind of got it,were I can't undo this unless I go through the struggles.It makes sense.If you want a reward..it aint coming easy.I guess they say the happiest people who have the best sex lives are those who aren't thrill seekers.They live a very boring,predictable life.Where I live ,which is New Jersey,I live in a very affluent town were hedonism is rampant.Sex clubs,wife swapping,drinking,drugs..you name it.I had some woman at kids party start chatting me up,finger herself and when I turned to her,she wiped it under my nose and goes "what do you think?" I go "smells like fish and cheese and you need to take care of that..immediately" Hot as hell she was..but this is what I have to deal with being a porn addict..constant triggers.So,I have stepped back,and became more of a home body with my kids and declined alot of these bullshit social gatherings that these parents say are for the kids,but it's just an excuse to drink and do drugs..which I don't want my kids to see. If you get a chance,check out Randy Pauch's last lecture.It will inspire you to attain greatness.It has impacted my life and gives me a meaning of how lucky I am to have a wonderful wife and children.I will get through this.Like all recovering addicts,I will find joy and happiness in the simplicity of life itself.