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Thursday October 17th, 2019 4*
Today was awesome! Went to bed at 10pm and did touch my phone until I woke up. Got everything I needed to get done early in the day. Now im going out with friends to the bar/club.
One thing that sometimes hinders me/ is in the back of my mind when going out and talking to girls is "i probably couldn't even get it up if this worked out" has anyone else ever had this? and if so how did they overcome it?
Today was awesome! Went to bed at 10pm and did touch my phone until I woke up. Got everything I needed to get done early in the day. Now im going out with friends to the bar/club.
One thing that sometimes hinders me/ is in the back of my mind when going out and talking to girls is "i probably couldn't even get it up if this worked out" has anyone else ever had this? and if so how did they overcome it?
Another good day today. had a girl all over me at the club last night and I shut her down because I didn't want to go through the hassle/embarrassment of not getting it up when it got down to that. Super shitty thing to have in the back of my mind when out flirting and talking with girls. I know this is just a "takes time" thing but it sucks.
Today was good. Apart from being hungover. Got everything i wanted to do done minus study a lot and got a new book on investing !
Good shit.
Today was good. Apart from being hungover. Got everything i wanted to do done minus study a lot and got a new book on investing !
Good shit.
Saturday October 20th 5^
Today was a good day. Theres a few minor changes that I need to work on however Ive been doing great in general. Definitely been having some big withdrawals. Horny af all the time but this is making me want to talk to and approach girls so that is good.
This early phase is very tough and painful tbh.
to work on
- sleeping schedule
- add
- Avoiding social media.
If i could relate my past relapses to anything it would be video games and or social media. Every time since my last streak of 90+ its been from these. I must avoid these like the plague.
Today was a good day. Theres a few minor changes that I need to work on however Ive been doing great in general. Definitely been having some big withdrawals. Horny af all the time but this is making me want to talk to and approach girls so that is good.
This early phase is very tough and painful tbh.
to work on
- sleeping schedule
- add
- Avoiding social media.
If i could relate my past relapses to anything it would be video games and or social media. Every time since my last streak of 90+ its been from these. I must avoid these like the plague.
Sunday October 20th, 2019
6^
Was a weird day today. I got everything I wanted to get done on my list which was great. Finished studying for a big midterm, got an assignment done, etc. but man did I ever feel like shit. Tough to go through with everything you want to when youre having a rough day. The cravings are coming in hard which sucks.
Its just a lower pain/plee for some sort of release. absolutely annoying really lol. Whats crazy is to think its not a problem below the belt but all in the brain. Its just my brain begging me to hit the dopamine receptors with something big. Thats all it is. Just my dopamine receptors wanting a hit.
All in all this has been a great week. Im enjoying the daily sign off on this journal as well. Excited to see what this week will bring me. Ive set myself some fun little goals and targets to hit. Excited to work towards them!
6^
Was a weird day today. I got everything I wanted to get done on my list which was great. Finished studying for a big midterm, got an assignment done, etc. but man did I ever feel like shit. Tough to go through with everything you want to when youre having a rough day. The cravings are coming in hard which sucks.
Its just a lower pain/plee for some sort of release. absolutely annoying really lol. Whats crazy is to think its not a problem below the belt but all in the brain. Its just my brain begging me to hit the dopamine receptors with something big. Thats all it is. Just my dopamine receptors wanting a hit.
All in all this has been a great week. Im enjoying the daily sign off on this journal as well. Excited to see what this week will bring me. Ive set myself some fun little goals and targets to hit. Excited to work towards them!
Monday October 21st 2019 7^
Great day today lifestyle wise. i was super chatty with people, especially girls. Talked to three girls in my class, got a girls number, then called a different one at night.
Banger of a day with girls but did not study at all which was a need... oops.
Less withdrawals today which was nice.
been meditating everyday as well which has really helped with calming those withdrawals and bad feelings.
Great day today lifestyle wise. i was super chatty with people, especially girls. Talked to three girls in my class, got a girls number, then called a different one at night.
Banger of a day with girls but did not study at all which was a need... oops.
Less withdrawals today which was nice.
been meditating everyday as well which has really helped with calming those withdrawals and bad feelings.
Tuesday October 22nd 8^
reading some of these journals makes me realized how fucked up some people have it lmfao.
Im doing really good for myself. At least i dont want to suck dicks lul
was a weird day. need to get off the meds. They make me less chatty and sociable. Also not to put girls on a pedestal. gave this tinder girl too much attention for no reason. girl is legit just texting a bunch of dudes hoping for attention, sending nudes and loving the attention. im not the low life who needs that// definitely gonna smash her but im not trying to be the loser that kisses her ass whenever she sends a half naked photo
im better than that.
reading some of these journals makes me realized how fucked up some people have it lmfao.
Im doing really good for myself. At least i dont want to suck dicks lul
was a weird day. need to get off the meds. They make me less chatty and sociable. Also not to put girls on a pedestal. gave this tinder girl too much attention for no reason. girl is legit just texting a bunch of dudes hoping for attention, sending nudes and loving the attention. im not the low life who needs that// definitely gonna smash her but im not trying to be the loser that kisses her ass whenever she sends a half naked photo
im better than that.
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Hey its not gay if you say no homo Lol
I think you were referring to my journal with the dicksucking part..
but thats what porn turned me into
anyway, goodluck with your reboot, you seem to be doing good, id be careful about tinder though, that shit made me relapse
I think you were referring to my journal with the dicksucking part..
but thats what porn turned me into
anyway, goodluck with your reboot, you seem to be doing good, id be careful about tinder though, that shit made me relapse
hahaha honestly you got me. I probably read 90% of your journal last night and read your ups and downs. I've gotta say thats a fucking crazy story youve got. Sorry for calling you out haha
If I could give you any advice its just do the hard 90 days of no pmo and no mo. Like just cold turkey it. Whenever ive been my most successful and hit my targets its when ive just refrained completely.
If I could give you any advice its just do the hard 90 days of no pmo and no mo. Like just cold turkey it. Whenever ive been my most successful and hit my targets its when ive just refrained completely.
Wednesday, October 23rd 9^
Today was a weird day. Still good because I did everything I needed to, but weird. Started off slow because i hit snooze like 10 times on my alarm. Then got a little bit of studying done. got weird vibes when talking to one girl today, then got a different girls number but also weird vibes. like idk if she wanted to give it to me but did anyways.
I think i need to take a little focus off of girls and just focus on developing myself. Girls will come with time. Whats important is i improve on myself in other ways like school, work and personal development like reading and writing.
plus having a constant thought on what girls/people think about me isnt the best way to go about life.
gonna tone down with the girls and just focus on work and school tomorrow. besides ive got a date friday
Today was a weird day. Still good because I did everything I needed to, but weird. Started off slow because i hit snooze like 10 times on my alarm. Then got a little bit of studying done. got weird vibes when talking to one girl today, then got a different girls number but also weird vibes. like idk if she wanted to give it to me but did anyways.
I think i need to take a little focus off of girls and just focus on developing myself. Girls will come with time. Whats important is i improve on myself in other ways like school, work and personal development like reading and writing.
plus having a constant thought on what girls/people think about me isnt the best way to go about life.
gonna tone down with the girls and just focus on work and school tomorrow. besides ive got a date friday
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hey no hard feelings
thanks for reading
and yeah I need to do the 90 days..
for awhile when I stopped porn I was so horny that I was very needy looking for girls (and trannies..) and kinda used this as a side drug to porn but now I think this is not the way
I need to remove sex for a little while to reintroduce it later on in a healthier way
cause if I use women to channel my porn cravings ill go back to porn if the girl leaves and its gunna be a breakup + relapse = youre fucked boi
I'm focusing on the reboot and I'm aiming to take things really slow with girls (spend time with her and wait until i know I like her for sex)
but dont get me wrong, I need a girl
otherwise i swear ill relapse one day or another
I dont want to live a life without sex
thanks for reading
and yeah I need to do the 90 days..
for awhile when I stopped porn I was so horny that I was very needy looking for girls (and trannies..) and kinda used this as a side drug to porn but now I think this is not the way
I need to remove sex for a little while to reintroduce it later on in a healthier way
cause if I use women to channel my porn cravings ill go back to porn if the girl leaves and its gunna be a breakup + relapse = youre fucked boi
I'm focusing on the reboot and I'm aiming to take things really slow with girls (spend time with her and wait until i know I like her for sex)
but dont get me wrong, I need a girl
otherwise i swear ill relapse one day or another
I dont want to live a life without sex
Sunday, October 27th, 2019 13^
Today was a slow day but still pretty good.
Got a lot of stuff done on my assignments and i'm back on track on my systems I do daily. Was a fun weekend. Flirted a ton and met some new girls.
Its interesting. i'm getting in a really good spot socially when it comes to how I interact with girls. Really liking how i'm developing.
Going to ease off of chasing girls for the next few days and try and get as much school work done as possible so I can have go hard for the halloween weekend.
Today was a slow day but still pretty good.
Got a lot of stuff done on my assignments and i'm back on track on my systems I do daily. Was a fun weekend. Flirted a ton and met some new girls.
Its interesting. i'm getting in a really good spot socially when it comes to how I interact with girls. Really liking how i'm developing.
Going to ease off of chasing girls for the next few days and try and get as much school work done as possible so I can have go hard for the halloween weekend.
Monday October 28th, 2019 14^
Cool hit the two week mark today. Was reading how to win friends and influence ppl then realized its my exes bday tomorrow. Lowkey miss having a hot girlfriend. Don't miss her, just miss the idea of having a hot ass gf.
Really makes me think about what I currently want right now. Do I want to be single? Do i want to try and find a girlfriend? Actually hard to say. They both have their pros and cons.
As of right now though i'm just going to focus on school and developing myself. Day 14 is sweet, getting super horny which is annoying but also great because it means i'm rewiring to real girls.
I think i'm going to take a break from tinder for a while. Its legit just the easy way out of meeting people. It just gives you a false sense of confidence because someone "swiped right" on you. Much better to eliminate that false sense of confidence and force myself to meet people through other means.
Either way focus for the next few days is school and getting my assignments done. There will be plenty of time to meet up with girls over the halloween weekend.
Cool hit the two week mark today. Was reading how to win friends and influence ppl then realized its my exes bday tomorrow. Lowkey miss having a hot girlfriend. Don't miss her, just miss the idea of having a hot ass gf.
Really makes me think about what I currently want right now. Do I want to be single? Do i want to try and find a girlfriend? Actually hard to say. They both have their pros and cons.
As of right now though i'm just going to focus on school and developing myself. Day 14 is sweet, getting super horny which is annoying but also great because it means i'm rewiring to real girls.
I think i'm going to take a break from tinder for a while. Its legit just the easy way out of meeting people. It just gives you a false sense of confidence because someone "swiped right" on you. Much better to eliminate that false sense of confidence and force myself to meet people through other means.
Either way focus for the next few days is school and getting my assignments done. There will be plenty of time to meet up with girls over the halloween weekend.
Tuesday October 29 2019 15^
Haven't really had any real urges to go to PMO I think it usually just happens when im super bored, lonely or get lost on social media and end of clicking through hours of that shit.
As long as im able to stay off social media im usually fine for the most part. Today was a really slow day. Again, I need to work on my sleeping pattern. Ive been regulary going to bed really late and then just waking up super late.
Im going to just continue waking up early to force myself to sleep early because ill be so tired.
Apart from that learned a lot of cool shit on youtube today and took a bunch of notes so that should be fun to try out this weekend. Going to review it daily and see how it works.
Haven't really had any real urges to go to PMO I think it usually just happens when im super bored, lonely or get lost on social media and end of clicking through hours of that shit.
As long as im able to stay off social media im usually fine for the most part. Today was a really slow day. Again, I need to work on my sleeping pattern. Ive been regulary going to bed really late and then just waking up super late.
Im going to just continue waking up early to force myself to sleep early because ill be so tired.
Apart from that learned a lot of cool shit on youtube today and took a bunch of notes so that should be fun to try out this weekend. Going to review it daily and see how it works.
Sunday, November 3rd, 2019
What a weekend that was. Hooked up with a girl and didnt have any ED problems which was legiiiiitttt. Watched a sweet video on how a lot of it is just in our head. (Don't get me wrong, i know some of it isnt but having gotten ed with numerous girls definitely fucks with your mental and with your confidence)The key is to focus on your breathing, her breathing and just enjoy her body. Shit was working for me.
Now that the halloweekend is over it's time to get back on my grind. Getting laid this weekend made me realize chasing girls and having sex is great, but honestly it is over hyped.
The satisfaction of growing as a person, making more money, lifting more, making gains, doing well in school and becoming a better me feels way better.
Its important that I remember this. Don't put girls and getting girls on a pedestal. work on you and the babes will come. Chasing girls is actually over rated.
What a weekend that was. Hooked up with a girl and didnt have any ED problems which was legiiiiitttt. Watched a sweet video on how a lot of it is just in our head. (Don't get me wrong, i know some of it isnt but having gotten ed with numerous girls definitely fucks with your mental and with your confidence)The key is to focus on your breathing, her breathing and just enjoy her body. Shit was working for me.
Now that the halloweekend is over it's time to get back on my grind. Getting laid this weekend made me realize chasing girls and having sex is great, but honestly it is over hyped.
The satisfaction of growing as a person, making more money, lifting more, making gains, doing well in school and becoming a better me feels way better.
Its important that I remember this. Don't put girls and getting girls on a pedestal. work on you and the babes will come. Chasing girls is actually over rated.
Tuesday November 5th, 2019 21^
NEARLY made a big mistake today. spent like 15 minutes scrolling through hot pictures of girls on instagram. I'm not seeing this as a reset because I was able to stop myself before anything stupid happened.
I did not edge or anything I was just enjoying the pictures. Shitty thing I did...
Lesson learned though. Im clearly in a vulnerable point in my reboot.
This means tinder and instagram need to be removed from my phone for a few days.
Need to reframe from looking at any sort of potential triggers to go on a social media look that leads me to looking at more explicit shit.
NEARLY made a big mistake today. spent like 15 minutes scrolling through hot pictures of girls on instagram. I'm not seeing this as a reset because I was able to stop myself before anything stupid happened.
I did not edge or anything I was just enjoying the pictures. Shitty thing I did...
Lesson learned though. Im clearly in a vulnerable point in my reboot.
This means tinder and instagram need to be removed from my phone for a few days.
Need to reframe from looking at any sort of potential triggers to go on a social media look that leads me to looking at more explicit shit.
Saturday. November 9th 25^
Starting to get a lot more feeling down there. Really messed up with a girl I liked this weekend because I was boozing too hard. ended up being a huge asshole to her and pretty much ruined my chances.
While im doing this reboot im just going to focus on making as many friends as possible. Stop trying to game girls and just try to be friends with them.
crazy it took me this long to realize thats the real secret to enjoying time with girls.
Starting to get a lot more feeling down there. Really messed up with a girl I liked this weekend because I was boozing too hard. ended up being a huge asshole to her and pretty much ruined my chances.
While im doing this reboot im just going to focus on making as many friends as possible. Stop trying to game girls and just try to be friends with them.
crazy it took me this long to realize thats the real secret to enjoying time with girls.