O with wife, but I think I screwed up

It's been five weeks since I looked at porn, but I had three evenings with my wife where she couldn't make me orgasm, so I had to finish myself.

I noticed last week that later that night I had really strange dreams, then the next morning back to serious depression.  (I hit major depression at the three week mark, then started to feel a bit better, at least as far as the depression.)

Now I've determined that I should have started with no P, no M, and no O.

I'm bummed, because if I had started hard mode when I stopped P, I would be further along, I think.

I'm still in a major flatline, and I haven't had anything even remotely close to an erection since I quit porn.  Penis is nearly lifeless.

So depressing.  I'm have no confidence at all that this is going to work, and that I'm going to get erections back, but I'm going to stick with it as long as I need to.

Anyway, I'm officially on day 5 of no O.  Feel like I started the counter all over at zero...

Hold on, man.
You will see the progress eventually, just don't give up.

You might have been farther along, but then again, you might not.  No way to know for sure and what's done is done.  The major point is that you've stayed away from porn.  Keep doing that and you'll get there.  It just can take a long time for some of us. 

Hey as long as you don't watch porn that's the main thing. Masturbation to porn will set you back for sure.

Masturbation by itself is less harmful but apparently it's good to stop for 90 days and then also drastically reduce how much you do it.

Therr are times when I have had a BJ and O from my GF amd I went right back into flatline. Felt like shit as if I destroyed my progress. But actually I'm finding the next flatline is not lasting as long as the first. So there is hope.

Remember progress is non linear.