Triggers...
Well what can I say, I am a living relapse. I've had some success rebooting and it 100% works if you commit and give yourself time to heal.
I had healed a great deal, but I slowly slipped and I'm back at square one and a year older.
What i have found us that the novelty is overwhelming. You find the perfect "porn star" and the perfect scene to blow your load, and from the corner of your eye you spot a pair of nice tits and you go off on an hour tangent looking for the perfect scene of this "star" worthy of your jizz.
Then you climax and for a moment feel complete and then you realize you're a piece of shit while the downer kicks in.
You become a passenger in your own life, waiting to pmo while wondering can you make it through another day without jumping off a bridge (wow success, another day alive.)
I'm not asking for sympathy, just a place to vent. I know some don't think porn is addictive, and maybe for them it's not...but for me, well it's a juggernaut of addiction.
I'll start my journal again and have another go.
Well what can I say, I am a living relapse. I've had some success rebooting and it 100% works if you commit and give yourself time to heal.
I had healed a great deal, but I slowly slipped and I'm back at square one and a year older.
What i have found us that the novelty is overwhelming. You find the perfect "porn star" and the perfect scene to blow your load, and from the corner of your eye you spot a pair of nice tits and you go off on an hour tangent looking for the perfect scene of this "star" worthy of your jizz.
Then you climax and for a moment feel complete and then you realize you're a piece of shit while the downer kicks in.
You become a passenger in your own life, waiting to pmo while wondering can you make it through another day without jumping off a bridge (wow success, another day alive.)
I'm not asking for sympathy, just a place to vent. I know some don't think porn is addictive, and maybe for them it's not...but for me, well it's a juggernaut of addiction.
I'll start my journal again and have another go.