guitarman8
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Hi everyone, before I get into my story with porn-induced sexual dysfunction, I just wanted to give as much background about myself as I possibly could.
I am just an average 17 year old dude. I've been into sports and fitness my whole life. I have been involved in various athletics since I was about 4 years old. I have a slightly lean muscular body which I am proud of but am striving for better. I have always been social, always trying to make people laugh, and ever since my teenage years have been relatively good with girls. I started watching porn at around the beginning of middle school, I remember being able to get off to anything. As I got older however, the types of scenes that gave me pleasure have continuously narrowed down.
I've been sexually active since around 14-15 years old and lost my virginity to my ex-girlfriend at 15. I never really though that I had any sexual dysfunction during that relationship but really took notice how long I lasted. I mean it would take over half an hour for me to finish from handjobs, blowjobs, even sex. I would usually only finish from my own hand after her giving me head for a while. After a few successful attempts at sex one time it went wrong and I was not able to get hard. It was terrifying for me and of course when I got home that day I googled my problem and came across tons of articles about Porn's effect on sexual function. My porn use at the time I would say was moderately heavy. Probably everyday. I don't remember myself ever involved in any vulgar and crazy types of scenes, but I do remember being very specific about what I liked. After that I immediately decided to go no PMO for a week and it worked! I was back to normal with her and for the remainder of that relationship there were never any big issues. After that week I picked up moderate porn use once again. I broke up with her earlier this year for different reasons but it was a good decision and it was not a bad break up.
For about a few months after that I was single, had a few hook ups that did not go past kissing, and I was again using porn. I was not using porn everyday however, because school had gotten hard and I would honestly just fall asleep right after my homework was done. A few months ago I reconnected with an old friend of mine who moved away when I was 13 years old. She was my first real big crush, I had a lot of feelings for her but nothing besides friendship ever developed. After we reconnected however, all of the feelings for her came back, and she even confessed that she had a lot of feelings for me too. She still has family where I live so she visited for a week in the winter and we hooked up (just kissing). After she left we continued to talk over facetime and text and we grew even closer than we already were from knowing each other for so long. She visited again and we hooked up again (just kissing). We both wanted to have sex, but I realized that I had been using porn a lot and was scared that my problem came back. Shortly after we became official and I made her my girlfriend. She visited once more about a week ago, and after an amazing day spent together, we tried to have sex. My fear was confirmed as absolutely nothing got me hard. She completely understood and I just gave her oral until she finished.
Our relationship currently is still amazing and does not seem dented by that failed attempt, however I really do love this girl, as much as a 17 year old possibly could, I really care for her and want to feel that connection with her on a physical level. I have made a promise to myself that I will cure this PIED for both myself and her. I am currently 4 days in and very optimistic. I have cleaned up my diet and started going harder at the gym and on the field. Her next visit will be in about a month and I do want to try having sex again with her. I am willing to do whatever it takes to make love to my beautiful, amazing girlfriend.
This is my first time ever writing a blog post, so I am very sorry if this isn't a good quality report. All in all I am nervous about my PIED especially since I am only 17 and am a healthy outgoing kid who had never involved in SUPER heavy porn use. I will be keeping up with my journal. Any advice from people of all ages is greatly appreciated!!
PS:
-I don't really get any morning wood
-I was able to get hard while making out with my current girlfriend
-I am able to get fully hard to porn
-I am able to get a semi and sometimes fully hard just by sensation
I am just an average 17 year old dude. I've been into sports and fitness my whole life. I have been involved in various athletics since I was about 4 years old. I have a slightly lean muscular body which I am proud of but am striving for better. I have always been social, always trying to make people laugh, and ever since my teenage years have been relatively good with girls. I started watching porn at around the beginning of middle school, I remember being able to get off to anything. As I got older however, the types of scenes that gave me pleasure have continuously narrowed down.
I've been sexually active since around 14-15 years old and lost my virginity to my ex-girlfriend at 15. I never really though that I had any sexual dysfunction during that relationship but really took notice how long I lasted. I mean it would take over half an hour for me to finish from handjobs, blowjobs, even sex. I would usually only finish from my own hand after her giving me head for a while. After a few successful attempts at sex one time it went wrong and I was not able to get hard. It was terrifying for me and of course when I got home that day I googled my problem and came across tons of articles about Porn's effect on sexual function. My porn use at the time I would say was moderately heavy. Probably everyday. I don't remember myself ever involved in any vulgar and crazy types of scenes, but I do remember being very specific about what I liked. After that I immediately decided to go no PMO for a week and it worked! I was back to normal with her and for the remainder of that relationship there were never any big issues. After that week I picked up moderate porn use once again. I broke up with her earlier this year for different reasons but it was a good decision and it was not a bad break up.
For about a few months after that I was single, had a few hook ups that did not go past kissing, and I was again using porn. I was not using porn everyday however, because school had gotten hard and I would honestly just fall asleep right after my homework was done. A few months ago I reconnected with an old friend of mine who moved away when I was 13 years old. She was my first real big crush, I had a lot of feelings for her but nothing besides friendship ever developed. After we reconnected however, all of the feelings for her came back, and she even confessed that she had a lot of feelings for me too. She still has family where I live so she visited for a week in the winter and we hooked up (just kissing). After she left we continued to talk over facetime and text and we grew even closer than we already were from knowing each other for so long. She visited again and we hooked up again (just kissing). We both wanted to have sex, but I realized that I had been using porn a lot and was scared that my problem came back. Shortly after we became official and I made her my girlfriend. She visited once more about a week ago, and after an amazing day spent together, we tried to have sex. My fear was confirmed as absolutely nothing got me hard. She completely understood and I just gave her oral until she finished.
Our relationship currently is still amazing and does not seem dented by that failed attempt, however I really do love this girl, as much as a 17 year old possibly could, I really care for her and want to feel that connection with her on a physical level. I have made a promise to myself that I will cure this PIED for both myself and her. I am currently 4 days in and very optimistic. I have cleaned up my diet and started going harder at the gym and on the field. Her next visit will be in about a month and I do want to try having sex again with her. I am willing to do whatever it takes to make love to my beautiful, amazing girlfriend.
This is my first time ever writing a blog post, so I am very sorry if this isn't a good quality report. All in all I am nervous about my PIED especially since I am only 17 and am a healthy outgoing kid who had never involved in SUPER heavy porn use. I will be keeping up with my journal. Any advice from people of all ages is greatly appreciated!!
PS:
-I don't really get any morning wood
-I was able to get hard while making out with my current girlfriend
-I am able to get fully hard to porn
-I am able to get a semi and sometimes fully hard just by sensation