Walking out from shame to true. Really hard for married man.

Hello I am 33 male,

I started to using porn when I was 18. Actually I have wife and I want to focus my attention only around her thats why I start to interesting of nofapp. This year first time in my life I said that is enough of PMO. I want to normal life without PMO. Worriest thing is that I am married for few years. Our sexual life until now was quite normal. Of course I saw delayed ejaculation problem. One day I said is enough and i start my road to victory.

I deacrease PMO for half of year . I had more normal orgasms during casual sex than from PMO but sometimes I did it myself.

Since new year I throw away watching porn and then my life totally change. I never had before ED but now after 3 months of
absence I cannot get full stifness. My wife didn't know about my problems before but now she see that is something wrong with me and my errection.

She send me to the doctor but I told that is not nescesery right now. Finally I told her about my addiction, she was very sad.
My road to victory change dramaticly for road to hell. :-[. I explained her how it works and show her Garry Wilson video about Great Porn Experiment. She stil upset for me. I fell like shit.

My experiment bring me double trouble - ED and problems in relationship.

I don't want to stop it now I don't want to surrender against my porn addiction.

My libido is very low but level of problems moving up.

Thanks guys for your attention I just want to share with you my story. Bye.

First day after my talk with my wife was good. I finally tell the true. I feel less guilty right now and fair with my wife.

I really believe heal our sexual life this is power of love . I am in flatline but everything gonna change.

If I will have another news I will share with You.

Good luck guys.

Another day in paradise

I absolutely didn't belive in super powers I thought that is , You know bullshit. I WAS WRONG.
That is works i see better concentration and energy. But in the oposite site is flatline. Is so strange.
Because of this I need to check am I fine. I thinks alot to myself- Is my ED is because of my brain? And I reapsed after 30 days. What a shame.

Exactly S-H-A-M-E= less self confidence and being guilty.

What I feel after relapse From one side shame from other I was happy because it is only ED in my brain.
It was a lesson of life one thing is important no matter what did you do don't feel guilty (CAUSE YOU START FIGHT).

You fail but you can stand up and do this as fast as you can.

Take care of your confidence and enjoy life. Be brave (of course not like IRON MAN) brave means trust to yourself like hero of own llfe.

Good night fighters! May the Force be with You!

Congrats on you lifting that weight off of your shoulders Dolle. I know exactly what you mean, because I'm 33 and married as well. I realized my problem about a month ago, and told my wife about 2 weeks ago, after a whole lot of thinking and contemplating of course. It was probably one of the hardest things I've ever had to do, because we've been married for a while now, bout 6 years, and we want kids, but of course with my PIED our sex life became pretty much non-existent, thus no kids yet. And as prideful as I am, this really killed my confidence and self-esteem. This also has created a HUGE disconnect between my wife and I, and I all but hate myself for it. But after realizing that I had this problem and coming and reading the many other stories on this site, it was really weighing heavy on me, and I knew that for our marriage to ever have a chance to get right, I had to come clean to her and get this off my chest. So I finally swallowed ALL OF my pride and told her. SMDH... As expected, it was all but over for about a week or so. But now it seems like we are easing back up to each other, and I feel like she is willing to work through this with me. I've not watched any P in 30 days. I'm fairly new to all of this, and I feel like I flatlined for about 2 or 3 weeks. But now I have times where I get erections just thinking about or seeing my wife sometimes. I haven't tried anything with my wife yet, because I hate to fail and I'm nervous about things not going well. But I'm working on getting out of my head, and I'll probably try with my wife this weekend to see how things go. I know this is a life journey that I'm on, but I'm determined to have a great marriage with a wonderful sex life. I have no more desire to look at P, now that I know the effects of it, and I know that I'm on the road to recovery. Keep up your good work my friend, and keep coming on the site, because I find the similar stories makes this easier to deal with, knowing that we're not the only ones dealing with this. I also find the success stories to be very encouraging.

Skeeter83, I just wanted to say how really awesome you are. Honesty is so hard sometimes but it will transform your reboot a lot. I know your wife is hurting. I am a wife/partner and I know what that feels like. But there is hope. She needs time to process. I would encourage you to show her the partners forum here if she needs a place to be able to seek support. Also I would encourage you to read some thing the women's journals here. It might help you to understand what it is like to be a partner? There are some really great books that both you and your wife might enjoy? They have helped my husband and I tremendously! Love you, Hate Porn is a great place to start. Hold me Tight is another! Anyway I just wanted to say that I think what you have done was brave and I commend you for that. Keep up the forward progress!

Thank You Skeeter83 don't think a lot about fails. I hope you will pass your exam and finally you will have wonderful sex and get award for your fight.

Finally I found another thing and it so bad and piss me of.  I can have a sex with errection but I can't finish. In my opinion is DE. We also want kids but because of me we haven't. I am physicly exhausted and I don't know what is good way to move  this problem ahead.

If you have any sugestions materials about this please reply below. Thanks and good night.

Sorry Dolle, but the only advice I have for you is to NEVER look at P again, only M ONLY when you absolutely have to, continue to try to remain as positive as possible about moving forward, and pray about it and/or increase your spirituality. Lol. I know that was actually a few things huh...!?! Lol. One last thing, continue to come on here and read confessions and especially the partners' forum and success stories. Good luck to you man, and when you make up your mind to never go back, then I'm confident that things only improve from there.  For me they couldn't get any worse.

Hello Guys after 10 clean days without PMO. During that days I discovered another me. And I start to define my own definition of sex. Maybe it sound strange but many things looks different without fantasising, you discover deeply your body and mind.

We resign of masturbation only clean common sex. During last days i feel more urge. Morning wood is everyday, my erections and orgasms are strong enough.

Things going to the right way but I have in my mind that is not end of my road. Sometimes I think about PMO but I try throw away all of triggers. I find more duties so I have less time to think about porn.

Have a nice weekend. Happy Easter, listen and enjoy this video when you have bad days.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sTJ7AzBIJoI

Thank You Robert, Don't think a lot about fails. I hope you will pass your exam and finally you will have wonderful sex and get award for your fight.

Finally I found another thing and it so bad and piss me of.  I can have a sex with erection but I can't finish. In my opinion is DE. We also want kids but because of me we haven't. I am physically exhausted and I don't know what is good way to move  this problem ahead.

If you have any suggestions materials about this please reply below. Thanks and Have a good day..

From last of March i start my flatline again that is very uncool for me and my wife. I don't have libido and myerection is weak.

Is it normal I though that i have one flatline but it returns. I don't watch porn and that is good thing and of course no masturbation at all.

How long will that take? Should I have sex during reboot or it is not good idea?

My husband and I did occasionally have sex during his reboot but I will caution one thing, and this was just our experience but I have also read other men having a similar experience. After we had sex he felt more tempted. That was when his temptations were the strongest actually. I think it's like a chaser effect. Something to consider. In retrospect I feel like it would have been better for us to have not had sex. It wouldn't kill either of us to wait and actually after the first 90 days we did go a stretch without sex for about 90 days and it was fine. You should talk to your wife about it and see how she feels. I am sure your brain will rewire faster without sex. I know a lot of men on here disagree and really think they need to have sex to rewire but that is just not the case. That reasoning is a brain craving the dopamine. Just something to consider.

I too think that sex is bad during reboot, actually orgasming. I think that real rewiring karezza type of thing where you avoid even edging is beneficial, but regular sex/mating and with Oing can be too much dopamine for the brain that is trying to recover from too much dopamine, also very similar dopamine release is going on. Oing during PMO and during sex can feel very similar if not the same. The way you feel 1-2 weeks afterwards should tell you if you are ready to go back or take another month or two off.

Thank You Nikola and aquarius25  , actually i start 4th month of  Reboot.

Yesterday I felt urge again today was same. Do You think that I should not have sex in moments when I was horny enough to  have sex?

Today it is 30th day without relapse but also without flatline. Morning-wood is everyday I feel great. I thing sometimes about porn but I dont watch . My body and urge are very fine. My dreams come true I start to feel free and I can concentrate about more interesting thing of life.

God bless you.

After 45 days I relapsed again because of my flatline I wonder why I have low libido and ED for few weeks. I just wanna try everything was  fine during PMO. I need to go to visit doctor also maybe he helps me .

Have a clear day, bye.

low libido, ED and flatline is normal during reboot. it can last months, 45 days is nothing. unfortunately...

Hello guys after month break we have summer in our country and everything is fine.

My libido is still not so high as I want.

Last week i went to doctor he send me to laboratory for test. I mad a test of testosterone, tsh, prolactin etc. few mens hormons.

All of them were looked normal but prolactin was higher than normal.

Ideal levels of prolactin for men are probably between 5-10 ?g/L.
High prolactin in males can cause (R)

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  Headaches
  Infertility
  Low testosterone
  Low sexual desire
  Erectile dysfunction

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My level of prolatin was almost 17 ?g/L.

Next week I will go to another specialist maybe i will get medicaments for decreasing level of prolactin.  / TO BE CONTINED...

Actually 1 or 2 times per week is normal for most of men, but that may not be normal for you. Low hormone levels will lower sex drive. A simple blood test will confirm or eliminate the hormones question. Maybe an extra hour of sleep here and there would help as well. Actually low libido, ED and flatline is normal during reboot. it can last months, 45 days is nothing. I guess...

I wrote my last post almost 1,year ago.  Now my situation is better than before finally I became a father as I want. It id The best way to forget about other things. I feel sometimes urge to see vids but it is a different feeling than 3years ago.I hope that my story help You too. Thanks for support You all can win. Don't worry about fails just fight.