Hello Everyone!
First, I am very glad that I found those forums..and to understand more about the case and to see others who have the same situation..it is a pity how the issue is not tackled in media or whatever as it should be..
Well, I am 26, my first masturbation experience was associated with porn watching in the age of 12 or 13 i guess. Since then i have never stopped PMOing with different rates..but it was always like every other day 2-3 times...in the last couple of years I started working and I had to slow down, so it became 2-3 times a week once or twice each time. I grew up in a religious society where Sex before marriage is a taboo. I moved to Europe 4 years ago, and after 2 years I became not religious at all..but there was a huge psychological barrier in approaching girls because I am a virgin and it just felt so hard. Last week I met a very nice girl, and we spend great time together, then one night we kissed..and went home were things developed and we slept together...everything was normal (and later I told her that it was my first time, she was totally understanding and was surprised actually because she didn't notice anything weird..she said I saw that you know what you're doing)..but yea, my penis was dead..and of course my libido was very weak and i was doing everything out of curiosity and because I like her...but it didn't feel anything special. I told her sorry it is always hard the first time you know..and she was understanding and even more understanding later when i told her it was my first time...luckily later, she had her period and we were only doing foreplay...but again. my thing didn't move at all...I tried and she tried..and it was getting sometimes like 75% hard..and then sleeps deeply..I masturbated while I was with her (and it was one week without porn), with a semi hard penis....luckily she left back to her country..but we do have strong feelings to each other and I promised I would visit her soon..in January.
I started searching for the issue on the internet..and came across different articles and this website...before that I never thought I had a problem..I didn't actually concentrate with my erections..but now I can recall that my masturbations were happening with a semi hard penis only. The porn I used to watch was always soft (the softer it is the more I enjoyed it), I didn't go watching anything abnormal which I think is good. I am not sure how serious my case is...I still get morning erections from time to time (I remember 2 weeks ago I had a very hard erection that lasted so long, that I was pissed off as I wanted to pee but couldn't lol) right now I am on the rebooting journey...14 days PMO free and 5 days MO free (that last time was with her and i didn't have any porn fantasies in my mind) and right now i think I am having a flatline period...
The only thing now is i am not sure if I should visit her or not in January..it will be around 60 days PMO free. I am not sure if I will be better by that time...and now I am confused..should I just postpone it, or should I go and use some kind of pills for those couple of days and then continue with my rebooting process or what...I really need your advice here and I think I feel stronger than ever now to stop after experiencing the ED with her, so I would do whatever is better for me, even if it means waiting longer without seeing her and I don't know if she will be fine with that...Thank you!
First, I am very glad that I found those forums..and to understand more about the case and to see others who have the same situation..it is a pity how the issue is not tackled in media or whatever as it should be..
Well, I am 26, my first masturbation experience was associated with porn watching in the age of 12 or 13 i guess. Since then i have never stopped PMOing with different rates..but it was always like every other day 2-3 times...in the last couple of years I started working and I had to slow down, so it became 2-3 times a week once or twice each time. I grew up in a religious society where Sex before marriage is a taboo. I moved to Europe 4 years ago, and after 2 years I became not religious at all..but there was a huge psychological barrier in approaching girls because I am a virgin and it just felt so hard. Last week I met a very nice girl, and we spend great time together, then one night we kissed..and went home were things developed and we slept together...everything was normal (and later I told her that it was my first time, she was totally understanding and was surprised actually because she didn't notice anything weird..she said I saw that you know what you're doing)..but yea, my penis was dead..and of course my libido was very weak and i was doing everything out of curiosity and because I like her...but it didn't feel anything special. I told her sorry it is always hard the first time you know..and she was understanding and even more understanding later when i told her it was my first time...luckily later, she had her period and we were only doing foreplay...but again. my thing didn't move at all...I tried and she tried..and it was getting sometimes like 75% hard..and then sleeps deeply..I masturbated while I was with her (and it was one week without porn), with a semi hard penis....luckily she left back to her country..but we do have strong feelings to each other and I promised I would visit her soon..in January.
I started searching for the issue on the internet..and came across different articles and this website...before that I never thought I had a problem..I didn't actually concentrate with my erections..but now I can recall that my masturbations were happening with a semi hard penis only. The porn I used to watch was always soft (the softer it is the more I enjoyed it), I didn't go watching anything abnormal which I think is good. I am not sure how serious my case is...I still get morning erections from time to time (I remember 2 weeks ago I had a very hard erection that lasted so long, that I was pissed off as I wanted to pee but couldn't lol) right now I am on the rebooting journey...14 days PMO free and 5 days MO free (that last time was with her and i didn't have any porn fantasies in my mind) and right now i think I am having a flatline period...
The only thing now is i am not sure if I should visit her or not in January..it will be around 60 days PMO free. I am not sure if I will be better by that time...and now I am confused..should I just postpone it, or should I go and use some kind of pills for those couple of days and then continue with my rebooting process or what...I really need your advice here and I think I feel stronger than ever now to stop after experiencing the ED with her, so I would do whatever is better for me, even if it means waiting longer without seeing her and I don't know if she will be fine with that...Thank you!