mybestself
Active Member
And I here I find myself once more : )
Through my first attempt I was able to make 29 days porn free. My second attempt was around 18 days where at the end of day 18 I relapsed a few times, each relapse making use of more explicit content whilst taking me deeper and deeper into a funk. Last night was one of those nights where I found myself taking measures to view pornography whilst my fiancee was still in the flat - not cool.
On the plus side reaching that low has also helped to motivate me to re-start my journal once more and so here I am.
What am I going to do differently this time?
1. I'm going to read from the success journal forum each day and see if I can learn from those who have achieved some lasting sobriety
2. Continue to leave my work laptop at work regardless of whether Rachel is home or not. This adds 15-20 minutes onto my day tops which isn't that much
3. Restart daily meditation. 15 minutes a day after returning home from work
4. Continue setting a time limit of 1 hour when playing any computer games. I'll have the option to play more later but I don't want to play any longer than an hour at a time
<Edit> 12.45pm and already I feel so much more at peace for having re-committed to recovery
Wish me luck!
MyBestSelf
Through my first attempt I was able to make 29 days porn free. My second attempt was around 18 days where at the end of day 18 I relapsed a few times, each relapse making use of more explicit content whilst taking me deeper and deeper into a funk. Last night was one of those nights where I found myself taking measures to view pornography whilst my fiancee was still in the flat - not cool.
On the plus side reaching that low has also helped to motivate me to re-start my journal once more and so here I am.
What am I going to do differently this time?
1. I'm going to read from the success journal forum each day and see if I can learn from those who have achieved some lasting sobriety
2. Continue to leave my work laptop at work regardless of whether Rachel is home or not. This adds 15-20 minutes onto my day tops which isn't that much
3. Restart daily meditation. 15 minutes a day after returning home from work
4. Continue setting a time limit of 1 hour when playing any computer games. I'll have the option to play more later but I don't want to play any longer than an hour at a time
<Edit> 12.45pm and already I feel so much more at peace for having re-committed to recovery
Wish me luck!
MyBestSelf