Relapse

I went almost 34 full days without MO, O, and of course PMO!

after trying to get back together with my ex and failing it upset me so much. Then I went to two parties last night where I had plenty of girls up on me. But I came home and was so upset about things not working out with my ex, that I fell back into porn to cope with it. I was doing so well! And last night I noticed my ED was being cured because just when I put my hand on this girls waist I started to get hard! Now I feel i've destroyed all the progress I made...

How do I jump back onto the horse?

I'm being serious when I suggest to you to read your post a couple of times to get what you're asking for - it's got all of the fuel you need to get back on the horse. Good luck!

I'm very sorry to hear about your ex. The victory is that you linked the disappointment and pain to relapsing. Same thing happened to me when I had to break up with a girl I was seeing for two months this past year.

You only FEEL you have destroyed all the progress you've made. You absolutely have not. In 34 days your brain has healed tremendously. Too much for a single relapse to set you back to square one. It's not about the counter or number of days, it's about what's actually going on in your brain. The counter can only keep track of streaks. It is not the God of your reboot. Yes, of course the goal is to make it 90 days, 6 months, forever, etc. ; but don't get to hung up on the idea of 'relapse' - they are inevitable and don't set you back to one.

The failure is not that you relapsed, the failure would be that you didn't immediately get back on the horse. I believe it was Babe Ruth who said 'it's awfully tough to beat someone who doesn't give up'