Day Three.
Embarrassing to have to announce myself as a newcomer, but here we are. Trying to dial back into this community again.
I mostly stuck to MO, but PMO'd three times since January, as always triggered in sleep onset. I have many blocks in place on my computer, but I seem to have moved to my phone.
Always very short, no marathon seshes by any means, but the last one left me feeling pretty gross and bad about myself, so I knew it was time to start flexing these muscles again.
I also watched that Chris Rock special last night (not knowing) that I'm sure many people are discussing on these forums. It was interesting to hear someone who I don't associate with recovery use the terms he did; terms I usually only hear in my head when I read things on these sites, or as said in videos by the more prominent members of this community. I related a lot with what he said about "sexual autism" or the perfect cocktail he needs. Fortunately (or not) for me, I don't seem to need the cocktail to get off, but I'm just not hard and doing it just to get it out of the way so I can go back to sleep. I could be looking at just about anything, it's all muscle-memory.
In any case, taking another crack at it.
Embarrassing to have to announce myself as a newcomer, but here we are. Trying to dial back into this community again.
I mostly stuck to MO, but PMO'd three times since January, as always triggered in sleep onset. I have many blocks in place on my computer, but I seem to have moved to my phone.
Always very short, no marathon seshes by any means, but the last one left me feeling pretty gross and bad about myself, so I knew it was time to start flexing these muscles again.
I also watched that Chris Rock special last night (not knowing) that I'm sure many people are discussing on these forums. It was interesting to hear someone who I don't associate with recovery use the terms he did; terms I usually only hear in my head when I read things on these sites, or as said in videos by the more prominent members of this community. I related a lot with what he said about "sexual autism" or the perfect cocktail he needs. Fortunately (or not) for me, I don't seem to need the cocktail to get off, but I'm just not hard and doing it just to get it out of the way so I can go back to sleep. I could be looking at just about anything, it's all muscle-memory.
In any case, taking another crack at it.