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Re: Am Done.
« Reply #25 on: June 12, 2018, 02:05:29 AM »
DAY 3 of wk2
ten days in.
Changes felt:
-insane energy levels.
-increased confidence.
-real urge to improve my life.
Though i feel like tearing heads of and am easy to anger, am good.
Lets go week 2
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Re: Am Done.
« Reply #26 on: June 12, 2018, 08:57:06 AM »
end of day 2 wk 2
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Re: Am Done.
« Reply #27 on: June 12, 2018, 09:07:33 PM »
Got drunk and got a bj from some chic i dont know. then i went home and mo'd twice. i feel like crap.
Alcohol has to go too.
its 4 am and am stressed out about my relapse.let this be a lesson. Overconfidence is poisonous to progress.
Back on the horse
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Re: Am Done.
« Reply #28 on: June 13, 2018, 01:19:49 AM »
DAY 4 OF WK2
ywsterdy ended on a bad tone. Am quitting alcohol until i fully recover. I know its going to be hard but its worth the walk.
its day 11, ive mo'd twice and got drank once. Smoked tones of tobacco on that single night too.
My confidence hasnt dropped though i feel like a bag of shit. Am angry and disappointed. There was no excuse for getting drunk.
Lets go forward. Godspeed
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Re: Am Done.
« Reply #29 on: June 13, 2018, 10:32:01 PM »
DAY 5 of wk2

6 am EAT
wokeup,
 did a few pushups, took a shower and am off.
I had crzy chaser effects but i aint about to cave in while am sober. And alcohol is off my list.
Itsday 12 , i have relapsed twice on day 10 
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Re: Am Done.
« Reply #30 on: June 15, 2018, 03:06:01 AM »
DAY 6 OF wk2
Yesterday was a shitty day no doubt.
I had ZERO concentration, my memory was fucked and my job turned out to be the toughest ive ever had.
But i pushed through.
I feel a little better though am scared this weekend might attract friends and liqor. I think i will switch off for the weekend until i get bck to work.
EId Mubarak.
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Re: Am Done.
« Reply #31 on: June 15, 2018, 08:05:13 PM »
DAY 7 OF WK2

4am EAT

The dreams just wont stop. am moving from one to the next without stopping for snacks man.
Waking up tense and alert isnt nice but i wont relapse because of dreams son.
The nicest thing that has happened is me buying some cigarette which i lit and before i could smoke it something called and i threw it away. Felt amazing.
ITS END OF WEEK 2.
DAY 14. WEEK 3, wassssup?
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Re: Am Done.
« Reply #32 on: June 16, 2018, 10:27:33 PM »
DAY  1 of wk3

Week 2 just ended and it was sweeeet.
Week 3 has just begun.
Morning wood today.
Feeling good
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Re: Am Done.
« Reply #33 on: June 17, 2018, 08:09:46 AM »
i had two random erections today at like 95%.
Cravings have hit me all day but i know i will make it no matter what hits.
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