Spanishguy
Member
Hello guys.
I would like to tell you about how I have ignored my problem for so many years.
I am 29 and I have PIED since I was 19, or at least that was the first time I noticed it with a partner. At that time I just thought that person didn`t atract me enough to get hard. So I decided to not see people for some time and just masturbate, I wasn?t really interested in having a partner. The problem was that I completely ignored my ED...I though it couldn't be possible to have an ED being only 19.
After some other really bad experiences with sex(couldn`t maintain the erection for more than 2 o 3 minutes)...I became more adicted to porn...and pictures. My obsession was not normal and I knew it, but I was happy spending hours watching pictures and saving them in my computer while touching myself...I could do it 3 or 4 times every day...for years. I also got obsessed with spying people(something really weird, I know). Everytime I was sad, tired, stressed or bored I masturbated...I went to bed to late watching porn....so..many times I just didn't go to class.
It was two years ago that I decided to pay attention to my problem because I felt really atracted to someone in all senses and I wanted it to work...but I found a big problem on the way...PIED. I couldn?t get an erection without thinking about porn or dirty pictures. The relationship failed because of my insecurities...I got depressed...and that led me to compulsive masturbation...I was a 27 year old adult masturbating 3 times a day. I masturbated even with my penis not erected until I came.
Now I am seeing someone...I quited porn two weeks ago...but my penis is dead. I don?t have morning woods...I don?t feel anything. Yesterday we "had sex"...and my penis was completely soft while doing me a blowjob. It was emabrrasing...I had to start shaking it hard...but it lasted hard for a minute.
I have ruined my sexual life...and also my possibilities to get a real partner.
I would like to know if it is possible to recover from this. Anyone my age that has overcome this? I have spent like 15 years watching porn and I feel useless...I have lost all confidence on myself and just want to avoid sex.
I know it is just a matter of time...but I would like to hear about someone in my situation who has recovered.
Thanks for reading guys...and good luck for everyone.
I would like to tell you about how I have ignored my problem for so many years.
I am 29 and I have PIED since I was 19, or at least that was the first time I noticed it with a partner. At that time I just thought that person didn`t atract me enough to get hard. So I decided to not see people for some time and just masturbate, I wasn?t really interested in having a partner. The problem was that I completely ignored my ED...I though it couldn't be possible to have an ED being only 19.
After some other really bad experiences with sex(couldn`t maintain the erection for more than 2 o 3 minutes)...I became more adicted to porn...and pictures. My obsession was not normal and I knew it, but I was happy spending hours watching pictures and saving them in my computer while touching myself...I could do it 3 or 4 times every day...for years. I also got obsessed with spying people(something really weird, I know). Everytime I was sad, tired, stressed or bored I masturbated...I went to bed to late watching porn....so..many times I just didn't go to class.
It was two years ago that I decided to pay attention to my problem because I felt really atracted to someone in all senses and I wanted it to work...but I found a big problem on the way...PIED. I couldn?t get an erection without thinking about porn or dirty pictures. The relationship failed because of my insecurities...I got depressed...and that led me to compulsive masturbation...I was a 27 year old adult masturbating 3 times a day. I masturbated even with my penis not erected until I came.
Now I am seeing someone...I quited porn two weeks ago...but my penis is dead. I don?t have morning woods...I don?t feel anything. Yesterday we "had sex"...and my penis was completely soft while doing me a blowjob. It was emabrrasing...I had to start shaking it hard...but it lasted hard for a minute.
I have ruined my sexual life...and also my possibilities to get a real partner.
I would like to know if it is possible to recover from this. Anyone my age that has overcome this? I have spent like 15 years watching porn and I feel useless...I have lost all confidence on myself and just want to avoid sex.
I know it is just a matter of time...but I would like to hear about someone in my situation who has recovered.
Thanks for reading guys...and good luck for everyone.