Hi everyone,
Im after some advice on where I should be headed in my recovery. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. Especially from those that are already recovered.
BACKGROUND
- 26 y.o.
- M'd since age 13
- PMO'd since age 16
- Average once per day PMO since 16
- First sexual relationship at 18. No problems whatsoever. Relationship ended early 2010 when I was 22 yo.
- Started new relationship mid 2010. No problems getting hard ever. Some PE. Relationship ended mid 2012 age 24.
- 6 months no sex and early 2013 couldn't get hard for first time with a girl. High stress job working 80-100hr weeks as professional. Went to dr. Dr said I was fine and everything was psychological.
- Dating new girl since dec 2013. Had problems on and off for the last 9 months. No PE. But sometimes can't get hard. Went to dr. In August. Again dr said I was fine.
RECOVERY SO FAR
- Discovered ybop August 2014
Currently on day 61 of no PM. Have not really had a desire to PM for the whole 61 days and believe I will never go back to PM.
- day 1 was aug 7th. Took l-tyrosine in for first 3 weeks of quitting PM. Had strong urges in that first week and had sex with O probably 4 times.
- since week 2 I have averaged about 2 O's with S.O. Per week. Most of the time I took Viagra and really forced the orgasm. I will not force O anymore.
- on day 42, I felt flat all day and unresponsive. At night I had the best sex I have had in years. It seemed as though I went straight into a flatline again the next day. It was as if my penis just awoke for sex but went back to sleep again after. This is all well and good but the thing I worry about is that I don't believe it is reliable enough.
- on day 46 I discovered that it can be beneficial to abstain from O even with partner. I went 11 days and ended up O with partner on day 57 and 58. Now trying to go longer without O.
SUPPLEMENTATION
- currently taking fish oil tablets
- zinc tablets at night before bed
- cycling between sulbutiamine 2 weeks then l-tyrosine for 2 weeks.
- eating healthy with lots of red meat, vegetables and good fats for testosterone levels
- gym 4-5 days per week. Have always been fit.
QUESTIONS
- my libido is highly variable. It seems as if I go in and out of flatlines in a single day. I can have no MW, then be hard for 20-30mins while sitting at my computer at work (wonder if my brain associates being near computer?) then when I get home at night and get in bed with my partner it's as if all desire is gone. Does anyone know why I might get such variations in a single day?
- overall, from 61 days of PM free, I haven't noticed any dramatic changes in my libido. Can anyone offer an upper limit timeframe of when I should see results by?
- Since I get random erections during day. Is this a sign that rewiring is needed more than rebooting?
- if I need to stop O. Is sex with SO ok provided I avoid O? If so, how long should I do this for? If so why? Do dopamine levels still rise, similar to edging?
- I remember being very hard with my first gf (age 18-22) when just lying in bed in anticipation of sex. I haven't been like that since then. When I recover, should I expect to feel like this again?
Im after some advice on where I should be headed in my recovery. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. Especially from those that are already recovered.
BACKGROUND
- 26 y.o.
- M'd since age 13
- PMO'd since age 16
- Average once per day PMO since 16
- First sexual relationship at 18. No problems whatsoever. Relationship ended early 2010 when I was 22 yo.
- Started new relationship mid 2010. No problems getting hard ever. Some PE. Relationship ended mid 2012 age 24.
- 6 months no sex and early 2013 couldn't get hard for first time with a girl. High stress job working 80-100hr weeks as professional. Went to dr. Dr said I was fine and everything was psychological.
- Dating new girl since dec 2013. Had problems on and off for the last 9 months. No PE. But sometimes can't get hard. Went to dr. In August. Again dr said I was fine.
RECOVERY SO FAR
- Discovered ybop August 2014
Currently on day 61 of no PM. Have not really had a desire to PM for the whole 61 days and believe I will never go back to PM.
- day 1 was aug 7th. Took l-tyrosine in for first 3 weeks of quitting PM. Had strong urges in that first week and had sex with O probably 4 times.
- since week 2 I have averaged about 2 O's with S.O. Per week. Most of the time I took Viagra and really forced the orgasm. I will not force O anymore.
- on day 42, I felt flat all day and unresponsive. At night I had the best sex I have had in years. It seemed as though I went straight into a flatline again the next day. It was as if my penis just awoke for sex but went back to sleep again after. This is all well and good but the thing I worry about is that I don't believe it is reliable enough.
- on day 46 I discovered that it can be beneficial to abstain from O even with partner. I went 11 days and ended up O with partner on day 57 and 58. Now trying to go longer without O.
SUPPLEMENTATION
- currently taking fish oil tablets
- zinc tablets at night before bed
- cycling between sulbutiamine 2 weeks then l-tyrosine for 2 weeks.
- eating healthy with lots of red meat, vegetables and good fats for testosterone levels
- gym 4-5 days per week. Have always been fit.
QUESTIONS
- my libido is highly variable. It seems as if I go in and out of flatlines in a single day. I can have no MW, then be hard for 20-30mins while sitting at my computer at work (wonder if my brain associates being near computer?) then when I get home at night and get in bed with my partner it's as if all desire is gone. Does anyone know why I might get such variations in a single day?
- overall, from 61 days of PM free, I haven't noticed any dramatic changes in my libido. Can anyone offer an upper limit timeframe of when I should see results by?
- Since I get random erections during day. Is this a sign that rewiring is needed more than rebooting?
- if I need to stop O. Is sex with SO ok provided I avoid O? If so, how long should I do this for? If so why? Do dopamine levels still rise, similar to edging?
- I remember being very hard with my first gf (age 18-22) when just lying in bed in anticipation of sex. I haven't been like that since then. When I recover, should I expect to feel like this again?