Whiskey Dick
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So last night I was feeling fantastic. I was only on day 7 , but my libido was so high. I called up an old girlfriend of sorts, made plans, and went over to her house.
The good news is my dingdong worked well enough. I won't go into too many details so as to not titillate, but I'd give my performance an A minus. This is much better than the pooped post porn F from a couple months ago with this girl. I've had ok performances and terrible ones, and I always blame the terrible ones on stress. Or I don't return her calls when I know I can't perform. But last night I knew I could so I sought her out, and gave her my best yet.
But here's the bad news: after having sex, I came home and immediately looked at porn. 3 times, and masturbated all the way to an empty tank. So now I'm off the wagon again and crawling my way on the trail.
I've noticed others have had similar experiences, porn relapsing after orgasm. I know my brain's sexual pathways get lit up during the act, and stay buzzing afterwards, and I just associate that with porn, but I don't want to.
In everyone's better educated and more experienced opinions, should I do hardmode instead? Should I recite a mantra 7 hours a day, or do a daily recall of all the events where porn destroyed my life, so I have nothing but constant hatred for it, or do all the above? I had the willpower of a spoonbender before having sex last night; afterward, it was that of a meth addicted lemming eating their own feces for a second fix.
The good news is my dingdong worked well enough. I won't go into too many details so as to not titillate, but I'd give my performance an A minus. This is much better than the pooped post porn F from a couple months ago with this girl. I've had ok performances and terrible ones, and I always blame the terrible ones on stress. Or I don't return her calls when I know I can't perform. But last night I knew I could so I sought her out, and gave her my best yet.
But here's the bad news: after having sex, I came home and immediately looked at porn. 3 times, and masturbated all the way to an empty tank. So now I'm off the wagon again and crawling my way on the trail.
I've noticed others have had similar experiences, porn relapsing after orgasm. I know my brain's sexual pathways get lit up during the act, and stay buzzing afterwards, and I just associate that with porn, but I don't want to.
In everyone's better educated and more experienced opinions, should I do hardmode instead? Should I recite a mantra 7 hours a day, or do a daily recall of all the events where porn destroyed my life, so I have nothing but constant hatred for it, or do all the above? I had the willpower of a spoonbender before having sex last night; afterward, it was that of a meth addicted lemming eating their own feces for a second fix.