ArthurMorgan
Member
First of all thank you to Reboot and this whole concept. I'm 40 and have been using Porn since I was at least 19, then with the advent of internet porn my usage went up.
All through relationships I've used it, not with the partners but when I wasn't with them, and although it's sometimes taken me a while to get going, once I got an erection usually I've been fine.
However about two years ago celebrating my anniversary, I noticed ED when going to have sex with my wife. Since then it's got worse, and the last year or so, I couldn't even get hard to porn let alone my wife. I felt the pleasures and could come but the erection was really weak.
Then when I upgraded the extremity of the porn I watched, I physically got hard for a while, until even that stopped. Rather then slipping down a dodgy path of watching more and more weird sh*t. I decided to look into it, come across the whole re boot concept.
Watched Gabe Deems videos (which are great) and realised. I had a problem. I watched porn every other day, never went more then two days without watching it. Sometimes even in the toilet at work, altho I never saw this as a problem. Although, clearly it was.
Never told my wife about my porn usage, we just put my ED down to older age and recently brought Viagra (which I have yet to use) Baby, life, we never did it and the issue just kind of got forgot about amongst the trials of life.
I think this post is really for me, like a journal then anything. But if it gives a little hope to anyone else out there, then that's a bonus.
For the first time in years I have hope. I'm 20 days in to no porn and already, I'm seeing and feeling changes! The type I've never seen or felt in the last two years.
My first sex dream was around 13 days in, and it was a dream about me relapsing to porn! I dreamed that i was watching porn on my laptop and got ANGRY in my dream that I relapsed.
I'm now 20 days in and this morning had a vivid dream (not wet) about full on sex with my wife. I haven't had ANY sexual dreams, for at least a year. The last wet dream I had I can't even remember, maybe two years ago, if me and the wife went a while without sex.
Also, when waking from this dream I noticed a very weak but noticeable erection. Wohooo! Life is coming back into the old boy.
Now, I am expecting this to take hundreds of days, I'm patient. But I just want to tell all those about to start their re boot or midway through, have hope.
Again my erection was near non existent using my or my wifes hand, and already 20 days in, it's looking like things could possibly be happening.
No wet dreams yet, but I'm now feeling sexual in the day down there sometimes just sitting there. Which I never did befote in that manner.
Very glad I found this group. Im willing to wait as long as it takes to get things back to normal again. I will update if/when I get to day 50 and hope like the other stories here it helps and inspires.
Also despite thinking about using it now and then, the giving up the porn so far hasn't been too hard. I almost used it as a habit it seems like as opposed to a strong need! See you at day 50
All through relationships I've used it, not with the partners but when I wasn't with them, and although it's sometimes taken me a while to get going, once I got an erection usually I've been fine.
However about two years ago celebrating my anniversary, I noticed ED when going to have sex with my wife. Since then it's got worse, and the last year or so, I couldn't even get hard to porn let alone my wife. I felt the pleasures and could come but the erection was really weak.
Then when I upgraded the extremity of the porn I watched, I physically got hard for a while, until even that stopped. Rather then slipping down a dodgy path of watching more and more weird sh*t. I decided to look into it, come across the whole re boot concept.
Watched Gabe Deems videos (which are great) and realised. I had a problem. I watched porn every other day, never went more then two days without watching it. Sometimes even in the toilet at work, altho I never saw this as a problem. Although, clearly it was.
Never told my wife about my porn usage, we just put my ED down to older age and recently brought Viagra (which I have yet to use) Baby, life, we never did it and the issue just kind of got forgot about amongst the trials of life.
I think this post is really for me, like a journal then anything. But if it gives a little hope to anyone else out there, then that's a bonus.
For the first time in years I have hope. I'm 20 days in to no porn and already, I'm seeing and feeling changes! The type I've never seen or felt in the last two years.
My first sex dream was around 13 days in, and it was a dream about me relapsing to porn! I dreamed that i was watching porn on my laptop and got ANGRY in my dream that I relapsed.
I'm now 20 days in and this morning had a vivid dream (not wet) about full on sex with my wife. I haven't had ANY sexual dreams, for at least a year. The last wet dream I had I can't even remember, maybe two years ago, if me and the wife went a while without sex.
Also, when waking from this dream I noticed a very weak but noticeable erection. Wohooo! Life is coming back into the old boy.
Now, I am expecting this to take hundreds of days, I'm patient. But I just want to tell all those about to start their re boot or midway through, have hope.
Again my erection was near non existent using my or my wifes hand, and already 20 days in, it's looking like things could possibly be happening.
No wet dreams yet, but I'm now feeling sexual in the day down there sometimes just sitting there. Which I never did befote in that manner.
Very glad I found this group. Im willing to wait as long as it takes to get things back to normal again. I will update if/when I get to day 50 and hope like the other stories here it helps and inspires.
Also despite thinking about using it now and then, the giving up the porn so far hasn't been too hard. I almost used it as a habit it seems like as opposed to a strong need! See you at day 50