Sorry for my English first because I'm not a native speaker. I'm 21 years old and gonna turn 22 next month. I started watching porn since I was 13. And it got worse in college. I'm gay and I watched all kinds of porn and erotic lives and masturbated till 1 or 2 am every night. From one point I found out that I couldn't be as hard as before while I was watching porn. Then one day I attempted to have sex with a guy. But my dick was not hard enough to get in... That was really an embarrassing moment. Since then I had the shadow of that so I only tried oral sex with other guys then. About 2 years ago I started watching porn till even 3 am in the night. After a while of time, I found out that my dick became very soft while I was watching porn... And then I hooked up with a hot guy, but I couldn't get hard at all during the foreplay and handjob... Once again I hooked up with another guy. When we kissed on the road I got a strong boner. But after then I came to his house he wanna try anal sex, I was a little terrified, I couldn't be turned on at all. My dick was soft... I tried to do anal sex, at first it wasn't hard enough but he still put it in, but very soon it became soft again... I really panicked. My sexual desire became very low... I tried to sleep earlier but I couldn't fall asleep. I went to 2 doctors, they all said there's no need to check. They all thought it's because I usually stay up too late and masturbate too much. The first doctor I took his pills for 2 weeks. And watched porn only for once during 2 weeks. And I was living home instead of school dorms so I could try to sleep before 12 am every night. After 2 weeks I felt my erection became stronger when I tried to watch porn. But then I started masturbating every day again... and my dick became very soft during watching porn again. After I came back to school I went to another doctor, he gave me medicines too and I've been having them for a week. But because I'm living in school again so I can't sleep before 12 am anymore like before I don't know if this count as a factor... Finally today I got a sexual desire again... I tried to watch normal porn but my dick just didn't get hard... I don't know what to do. I've really been depressed and felt anxious by this for a long time... This had been lasted for like 2 years and got worse in recent year... I've been avoiding anal sex for more than 2 years because I've failed for 2 times and felt scared of it... Now even watching normal porn I can't even get an erection... But I still got some night wood and morning wood occasionally but it is not strong tho... Guys, please please if you have any good pieces of advice for me? I've really became depressed by this... I'm not happy and self-confident anymore... I'm afraid to hang out and talk with friends anymore... I really wanna know how to save this
