35 year old guy, have been using porn/masturbating since age 11.
For many years i always thought that my social anxiety, shyness, self isolation tendencies and even my porn/masturbation tendencies were related more from my low self esteem than the other way around (i.e. porn causing all of those)
I have been married for almost 15 years, and i must say that it has not been easy, all this time i have been able to conceal my porn addiction from my wife, still shes always been distrustful of me, a rough thing to handle for this many years for both of us.
I tried to quit more times that i can now remember but i haven't been able to go more than one week without going back to watching porn and or masturbating.
This time i must try something different that's why i'm sharing this post and joined this community, as i always thought i could just deal with this alone and after having a relapse only made things worse as i would end up beating myself for it, thinking i was hopeless, the only remedy binging on my addiction again and again.
Im tired of this cycle and im willing to change today, to get back my life, my health, my brain, my self esteem, my marriage, everything i have lost that i wasn't even aware i had before.
Today for me is day one.
For many years i always thought that my social anxiety, shyness, self isolation tendencies and even my porn/masturbation tendencies were related more from my low self esteem than the other way around (i.e. porn causing all of those)
I have been married for almost 15 years, and i must say that it has not been easy, all this time i have been able to conceal my porn addiction from my wife, still shes always been distrustful of me, a rough thing to handle for this many years for both of us.
I tried to quit more times that i can now remember but i haven't been able to go more than one week without going back to watching porn and or masturbating.
This time i must try something different that's why i'm sharing this post and joined this community, as i always thought i could just deal with this alone and after having a relapse only made things worse as i would end up beating myself for it, thinking i was hopeless, the only remedy binging on my addiction again and again.
Im tired of this cycle and im willing to change today, to get back my life, my health, my brain, my self esteem, my marriage, everything i have lost that i wasn't even aware i had before.
Today for me is day one.