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Though my title may seem like i'm boastful but I've always kept my head down in study but porn seems to be a escape from the stress of exams :/ I know not the reality. My previous history of porn roots to an exposure at age 12 with a relentless addiction. I would fight this addiction on months on ends but would always regress. So far this year the longest I abstained was 2 months which brought my grade average from A/B to 95-100%. I have an I.Q of 135 but that was when I was a kid, and a photographic memory which porn takes hold off, I'm assuming porn has dramatically reduced my cognitive function. I really need to get of porn addiction completely and take control over my life. Right at the moment I am mostly in control but out of the blue I would go on porn and "bust one".
I figured that my parents would not respond in an appropriate manner to my addiction and self motivation only works for a certain period. So I concluded the best solution is to join a online community where online support is given along with accountability rather than self-accountability. Btw me bragging about my I.Q is not to show im superior though I despise the social elitism snobbishness, I just realized porn addiction is usually associated with "weak minded" or not so bright individuals. This is absurd and from my experience porn is really the root cause of mental dysfunction and retrained relies heavily on motivation and will rather than intellect. Funny enough I try porn blocking softwares, such as K9, ColdTurkey etc but I end up mindlessly hacking my way through software reprogramming :/. Enough of me showing off I hope this journey is worth while and eventful
Though my title may seem like i'm boastful but I've always kept my head down in study but porn seems to be a escape from the stress of exams :/ I know not the reality. My previous history of porn roots to an exposure at age 12 with a relentless addiction. I would fight this addiction on months on ends but would always regress. So far this year the longest I abstained was 2 months which brought my grade average from A/B to 95-100%. I have an I.Q of 135 but that was when I was a kid, and a photographic memory which porn takes hold off, I'm assuming porn has dramatically reduced my cognitive function. I really need to get of porn addiction completely and take control over my life. Right at the moment I am mostly in control but out of the blue I would go on porn and "bust one".
I figured that my parents would not respond in an appropriate manner to my addiction and self motivation only works for a certain period. So I concluded the best solution is to join a online community where online support is given along with accountability rather than self-accountability. Btw me bragging about my I.Q is not to show im superior though I despise the social elitism snobbishness, I just realized porn addiction is usually associated with "weak minded" or not so bright individuals. This is absurd and from my experience porn is really the root cause of mental dysfunction and retrained relies heavily on motivation and will rather than intellect. Funny enough I try porn blocking softwares, such as K9, ColdTurkey etc but I end up mindlessly hacking my way through software reprogramming :/. Enough of me showing off I hope this journey is worth while and eventful