skyislimit
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Feel free to comment and give advice! I would love to hear from everyone. Here is my story.
Currently on day 11 of my current no PMO streak. Plan on doing daily logs here at the end of my day from here on out. Today was a great day, especially compared to yesterday, during which I was pretty sad due to my current situation with pied. I even had a pretty solid morning wood today. I am not an introverted person, I would say I am pretty good with girls and definitely have opportunities for sex often (and have failed many times the past year with different women) and for some reason I just broke down yesterday randomly feeling sorry for myself, I felt kinda bad wallowing in my own mess haha
My backstory is an interesting one, but probably not as unique as I would think. I am 20 years old, a college athlete, and I am also an intermediate/advanced weightlifter. 6'1, 200lb. I really hope my issue is porn related and not organically caused.
My porn use started as a child, probably around the age of 12, with just pictures of girls on the internet on my mom's computer late at night. To this day I remember how much those images used to arouse me. I never would say I watched porn endlessly multiple times, but it was a nightly event consistently up until recently when I discovered nofap. Throughout those porn-watching years, my tastes escalated, and eventually I started watching extremely disturbing genres of porn. I delved into shemale porn, and watched that material from about ages 17-19. In there somewhere a few times I watched animal porn, where dogs and horses would have sex with women. It was disgusting. This is not who I am, and I don't know why my tastes changed so much. Fast forward to being in college as a freshman, the time I "lost my virginity" was ridiculous. My penis literally did not budge. I found nofap, and instantly drastically reduced my consumption of pornography (maybe 5-6 times total over past year), and have seen gradual improvement, but still have ED over a year later. (longest streak 29 days).
I plan on doing a 90 day nofap hardmode challenge to hopefully overcome my erectile dysfunction. I will combine this with a daily light kegel routine and daily meditation. If by 90 days I am not fixed, I presume that porn is not the issue.
I remember my longest streak thusfar to be very confusing... It was during the summer when I was preoccupied with other things and keeping the streak was very easy, for a while. I had zero erections for quite a while, and very little drive at all until day 29. But day 29 felt like I was the horniest person on the planet. I had basically a nonstop erection and was SUPER sensitive, completely overnight. I literally could not resist the urge to masturbate and did so without pornography. Why is it that happened like it did? I don't really know.
Currently on day 11 of my current no PMO streak. Plan on doing daily logs here at the end of my day from here on out. Today was a great day, especially compared to yesterday, during which I was pretty sad due to my current situation with pied. I even had a pretty solid morning wood today. I am not an introverted person, I would say I am pretty good with girls and definitely have opportunities for sex often (and have failed many times the past year with different women) and for some reason I just broke down yesterday randomly feeling sorry for myself, I felt kinda bad wallowing in my own mess haha
My backstory is an interesting one, but probably not as unique as I would think. I am 20 years old, a college athlete, and I am also an intermediate/advanced weightlifter. 6'1, 200lb. I really hope my issue is porn related and not organically caused.
My porn use started as a child, probably around the age of 12, with just pictures of girls on the internet on my mom's computer late at night. To this day I remember how much those images used to arouse me. I never would say I watched porn endlessly multiple times, but it was a nightly event consistently up until recently when I discovered nofap. Throughout those porn-watching years, my tastes escalated, and eventually I started watching extremely disturbing genres of porn. I delved into shemale porn, and watched that material from about ages 17-19. In there somewhere a few times I watched animal porn, where dogs and horses would have sex with women. It was disgusting. This is not who I am, and I don't know why my tastes changed so much. Fast forward to being in college as a freshman, the time I "lost my virginity" was ridiculous. My penis literally did not budge. I found nofap, and instantly drastically reduced my consumption of pornography (maybe 5-6 times total over past year), and have seen gradual improvement, but still have ED over a year later. (longest streak 29 days).
I plan on doing a 90 day nofap hardmode challenge to hopefully overcome my erectile dysfunction. I will combine this with a daily light kegel routine and daily meditation. If by 90 days I am not fixed, I presume that porn is not the issue.
I remember my longest streak thusfar to be very confusing... It was during the summer when I was preoccupied with other things and keeping the streak was very easy, for a while. I had zero erections for quite a while, and very little drive at all until day 29. But day 29 felt like I was the horniest person on the planet. I had basically a nonstop erection and was SUPER sensitive, completely overnight. I literally could not resist the urge to masturbate and did so without pornography. Why is it that happened like it did? I don't really know.