Wannarecover
Member
Hello everyone!
I'm a 43 yrs old that has been maried for 18. I can count with my fingers the amount of times that I had sex without issues during this time.
The problem started with my strict religious beliefs. I was 21 yrs old the first time I kissed a girl, and did not have sex until I got married at 24.
As I saw premarital sex as a "sin" since childhood, I never approached anybody to have sex, and I was full of guilt and shame every time I masturbated. With time, I started masturbating to online porn.
When I got married, sex was horribly dissapointing to me and my wife. I had performance issues since the honeymoon. I had sex the first night, but no orgasm. I did not function again for the rest of the trip.
I went from the urologist to a psychologist, and nobody could find the root cause. I've been taking antidepressants for years.
Last year I started reading articles about "rebooting" and tried it for about 3 weeks in November. I did not tried to have sex, but I relapsed.
So, as a new years resolution, I started again and so far, I've been "behaving" for 39 days.
I'm really anxious all the time, and I don't have an idea when I should try again to have sex with my wife.
I'll keep you posted about my journey. Thanks for your time and understanding.
Raoul
I'm a 43 yrs old that has been maried for 18. I can count with my fingers the amount of times that I had sex without issues during this time.
The problem started with my strict religious beliefs. I was 21 yrs old the first time I kissed a girl, and did not have sex until I got married at 24.
As I saw premarital sex as a "sin" since childhood, I never approached anybody to have sex, and I was full of guilt and shame every time I masturbated. With time, I started masturbating to online porn.
When I got married, sex was horribly dissapointing to me and my wife. I had performance issues since the honeymoon. I had sex the first night, but no orgasm. I did not function again for the rest of the trip.
I went from the urologist to a psychologist, and nobody could find the root cause. I've been taking antidepressants for years.
Last year I started reading articles about "rebooting" and tried it for about 3 weeks in November. I did not tried to have sex, but I relapsed.
So, as a new years resolution, I started again and so far, I've been "behaving" for 39 days.
I'm really anxious all the time, and I don't have an idea when I should try again to have sex with my wife.
I'll keep you posted about my journey. Thanks for your time and understanding.
Raoul