I have been on all the sites reading your journals and finally decided to join. In my mind, I feel I don't have as big an issue(2-3 times a month) as a lot of people but it is definitely affecting my relationship with my wife. As a recovering alcoholic of 12 years, I still am great at deflecting blame, comparing, and minimizing my issues as you can tell. I have a problem and I know it. When I do PM and O without my wife, the guilt and remorse that I felt when I drank returns. It is definitely a thinking disease, just like alcohol. I make a decision to do it, then I do. I need help. Everyone on this site is amazingly supportive to each other and I hope that I can be help to someone suffering. Here is a little about me:
41 years old
Married for 17 years to a gorgeous woman and have two kids together
Been together for 22 years and she is more beautiful now than when I met her
The ONLY issue we have is my PMO
Grateful for sobriety, now it's time to work on PMO
I know this is a one day at a time program like AA but this is harder because I have tried to quit on my own and I don't have meetings to go to. I need this forum and all of you!
41 years old
Married for 17 years to a gorgeous woman and have two kids together
Been together for 22 years and she is more beautiful now than when I met her
The ONLY issue we have is my PMO
Grateful for sobriety, now it's time to work on PMO
I know this is a one day at a time program like AA but this is harder because I have tried to quit on my own and I don't have meetings to go to. I need this forum and all of you!