Silentium_
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I know this sounds stupid. But I have been and still am the girl all the boys chase. I used to just snap a finger and make a boy falling head over heels for me. But with my boyfriend its just not the same. He has a porn addiction and he's trying to reboot. Sometimes I feel he's not being honest to me about his attraction to me. He says that I look way better than those actresses and that he feels that im out of his league. I dont understand that he would still have PIED when having sex with someone he finds attractive or as he claims '' more attractive than porn actresses''.
In the beginning of our relationship (when he and i didnt know yet that he is an porn addict) he used to really point his finger at my performance in bed, about why his D wouldnt stay hard during sex and I just cant get these things out of my head.
Everyday im starting to feel more unattractive to the point that i dont really dare to eat, I'm Avoiding mirrors and i'm analysing things that arent perfect about my appearance and try to make a logic understanding as to why he wouldnt keep his erection during sex.
I feel so worthless and I have talked to him about it, but he doesnt fully understand why i feel this way as he does find me attractive and he tells me this everyday.
How do I stop using sex and his erection as a confirmation for that i am beautiful?
In the beginning of our relationship (when he and i didnt know yet that he is an porn addict) he used to really point his finger at my performance in bed, about why his D wouldnt stay hard during sex and I just cant get these things out of my head.
Everyday im starting to feel more unattractive to the point that i dont really dare to eat, I'm Avoiding mirrors and i'm analysing things that arent perfect about my appearance and try to make a logic understanding as to why he wouldnt keep his erection during sex.
I feel so worthless and I have talked to him about it, but he doesnt fully understand why i feel this way as he does find me attractive and he tells me this everyday.
How do I stop using sex and his erection as a confirmation for that i am beautiful?