Lengthy Masturbation Sessions - Potential Physical Harm

Warning - does contain some graphic descriptions of physical issues

I have lurked on this forum for a year or two, but never posted. I have tried rebooting a number of times but always fail. But I feel I should share my experience honestly and openly with others to try and help them avoid the mistakes I have made.

I am doing well with my recovery now, I am 32 days clean, but this is due to the shock I had which started off my latest attempt.

I was/am addicted to PMO. After losing my job I found myself facing a 3 month period where I was home alone all day and this led to my problem spiraling out of control. My sessions would extend from 8:30am when my wife left for work, through to lunch time. After a brief pause for some lunch, I would find myself returning to it again, often until 4pm or so. Effectively a whole day of edging, day after day, with a couple of O's thrown in.

This continued for around 6 weeks until one morning I had the shock of my life when I saw blood in my toiler after passing stools. This continued for a few days and was quickly followed by stomach pain which continued pretty much all day every day, albeit mild. After 2 weeks I went to the docs who conducted some routine tests and then referred my for some further ones.

To cut a long story short, after coming clean with various health professionals (very embarassing) they concluded that my lengthy PMO sessions have caused:

1) Several large internal hemarroids
2) A peptic ulcer in my stomach (from the fairly intensive O's I was having after a long time edging)
3) Diverticular disease and diverticulitis - a result of the same

I am now facing an operation to stop problems caused by 2 and 3 above, and all because I abused my body in such a RIDICULOUS way.

I am not sharing this to scare people, or make them feel bad, I am sure normal PMO routines/frequency dont result in this (the internet tells you as much) but I am also sure more and more people may be developing a tendancy to have longer and longer PMO sessions, and my message is this - DONT DO IT - STOP NOW. Even if your PMO habit continues, whatever you do, dont spend the amount of time I ended up spending on this awful addiction. It genuinely can cause you harm.

Hopefully I am on the road to recovery. There is nothing like a shock like this to make you realise how stupid you have been, and how addicted you were. 40+ days is my record and I have every intention of never going back to PMO. Ever.

Billy,

You are not alone with extended pmo sessions such to the point where one makes themselves physically sick. I remember penal abrasions so intense that I had trouble touching myself but I continued on. I also had physical symptoms that went beyond a beat up dick. It sucked, big time.

Sometimes hitting rock bottom can be a blessing, particularly if you can remind yourself where you came from and what you are doing here. More power to you and welcome to RN. As a lurker, you must be aware of how supportive and caring we are for others in this situation. We have all been there. We are all trying to get back.

I encourage you to join the appropriate age group and begin a journal that follows your life through this process.

We are here for you!

Peace

I had issues with hemorrhoids as well during PMO.  The constant tenseness/straining while in a slumped sitting position had a way of aggravating them, not unlike straining during bowel movements, except over a longer period of time.  I'd had issues with them over the years, but I think the non-PMO related ones were very, very rare.  I'm not sure how number three is related though... could you explain?

Thank you both, it is good to know I am not alone. Bob - I have experienced the injuries you talk about as well

DoneAtLast - the docs told me that I had created small tears in my intestines which can become infected by food/waste getting stuck. This causes stomach pain and can also contribute to blood in the stool

I really cannot believe I have got myself into this mess but I appreciate the support. I though I was the only one who did these mammoth PMO sessions

You are far from the only one.

I have had knee pain and other muscles strain and I couldn't figure out why. They I realized I was straining so much during a session that I caused an injury. Even got carpal tunnel from my wrist.

Pitiful.

Peace

Thats rough. But I too have suffered from several injuries relating to porn abuse. Yes Ive had the abraisions on my willy from too much jerking off and even from sticking it into places it didnt belong (I wont give you any specifics). Ive strained my wrist and shoulder from an almost 48 hour jerkoff session. And once I tried to jerkoff in a new position by bending my arm around the back of my leg and reaching between my legs and jerking it downward from behind- Nearly broke my arm. I also tried jerking upside down standing on my head (I wanted to come in my own face), and fell sideways into a bookshelf badly bruising my knee.
Absolutely pathetic, I shudder when I recall these things...
But as Bob said, you can use this feeling of self loathing as a weapon in your fight against PMO. There should be no better motivation to stop PMO than the desire never to feel like that again.

I'm sorry to hear about what it caused you. I too have had some issues because of long MO sessions. There were the simple things like raw skin, dry skin, small abrasions, hand joint pain, grip weakness, arm strain. But I've also had some more serious ones. I developed a Thrombosis of the vain after one particularly lengthy session. That freaked me out but fortunately it went away on its own after about a week and change of no PMO. Fortunately that (aka Mondor's Disease) is mostly benign and passes on its own with time, unless serious blockage occurs. PMO also aided in developing a periodontal cyst on my tailbone a couple years back (I was also just generally due to sitting a lot because of work and school reasons). That was incredibly painful and just gross. I don't wish that on anybody. Moral of the story is that, while MO feels like free fun, it's literal self harm when it's abused. I wish you the best with your issues and a speedy recovery.