gobigorgohome
Member
Hi guys,
This is my first post in Reboot Nation. How is everyone doing with your progress? I am here to share my reboot progress so far and I know it is still quite a long way to go but I hope my story helps any of you in any way, and I would be very thankful too if some of you can share your own experience/tips/advice with me. Here is my story:
Like most of you guys, I decided to start rebooting because of my PIED. I was frustrated and devastated as I was looking at a gorgeous girl on my bed and I had zero boner no matter how much I wanted to make it happen. Up until that point, I had sexual experience twice with two different girls but my boner always went limp after a few minutes and i basically just forced myself to orgasm to get it over with. Before that, I already came across yourbrainonporn.com but I did not fully believe the theory on the website until I finally had to admit to myself that porn was indeed the only reason I fucked up my brain. Now i still feel like a fucking virgin because i had never enjoyed any sexual experience in my life. Thus, my reboot journey began.
For the first few days, it was really really tough, I could not sleep, the urge was strong as hell. There were nights where I just stayed up the whole night as my subconscious was craving for something stimulating as usual, but my conscious forcefully stopped myself. After 2 weeks, I got over the urges as i was getting used to the idea that porn was not even an option anymore (the most important mindset to have - PORN IS NOT AN OPTION NO MATTER WHAT!). I went through a long flatline period (about 4-5 weeks) as i knew I did not have the option to look at a naked body on my laptop, thus the urge stopped and my labito dropped to zero. Had my wet dream after 3 weeks of non-PMO (for the first time since 6 years ago when I started PMO and got hooked to it). After that, it is just a constant cycle of: flatline - motivated to live my life - high sex drive (but no way to release it) - depression - flatline - motivated to live my life again - REPEAT. There are good days and bad days but so far it's been trending to a better direction after every cycle.
Now finally i got to 90 days, but i have been facing a lot of strong urges - not to look at naked girls but to fuck one. This is probably one of the toughest moments in my reboot progress as I keep looking for ways to get laid and eventually i will find myself browsing escort websites, even though i know i am not supposed to do that. The past week has been pretty tough and mostly filled with bad days (strong urges, browsing escort websites and feeling guilty afterwards, looking at my hard dick but not sure if it would work if there was a real girl beside me, etc.) .
That is all for my reboot story for now. I hope after writing this post I will feel better, get over it and focus on my goals more sharply from now on. Thanks for reading my story and I wish you rebooters the best of luck. Remember that you are not alone in this deep shit and there is always light at the end of the tunnel. Even though I dont see it yet but let's just hang tight and do it one day at a time. Take care!
[feel free to leave a comment and share your opinion/experience. I will reply as much as I can]
This is my first post in Reboot Nation. How is everyone doing with your progress? I am here to share my reboot progress so far and I know it is still quite a long way to go but I hope my story helps any of you in any way, and I would be very thankful too if some of you can share your own experience/tips/advice with me. Here is my story:
Like most of you guys, I decided to start rebooting because of my PIED. I was frustrated and devastated as I was looking at a gorgeous girl on my bed and I had zero boner no matter how much I wanted to make it happen. Up until that point, I had sexual experience twice with two different girls but my boner always went limp after a few minutes and i basically just forced myself to orgasm to get it over with. Before that, I already came across yourbrainonporn.com but I did not fully believe the theory on the website until I finally had to admit to myself that porn was indeed the only reason I fucked up my brain. Now i still feel like a fucking virgin because i had never enjoyed any sexual experience in my life. Thus, my reboot journey began.
For the first few days, it was really really tough, I could not sleep, the urge was strong as hell. There were nights where I just stayed up the whole night as my subconscious was craving for something stimulating as usual, but my conscious forcefully stopped myself. After 2 weeks, I got over the urges as i was getting used to the idea that porn was not even an option anymore (the most important mindset to have - PORN IS NOT AN OPTION NO MATTER WHAT!). I went through a long flatline period (about 4-5 weeks) as i knew I did not have the option to look at a naked body on my laptop, thus the urge stopped and my labito dropped to zero. Had my wet dream after 3 weeks of non-PMO (for the first time since 6 years ago when I started PMO and got hooked to it). After that, it is just a constant cycle of: flatline - motivated to live my life - high sex drive (but no way to release it) - depression - flatline - motivated to live my life again - REPEAT. There are good days and bad days but so far it's been trending to a better direction after every cycle.
Now finally i got to 90 days, but i have been facing a lot of strong urges - not to look at naked girls but to fuck one. This is probably one of the toughest moments in my reboot progress as I keep looking for ways to get laid and eventually i will find myself browsing escort websites, even though i know i am not supposed to do that. The past week has been pretty tough and mostly filled with bad days (strong urges, browsing escort websites and feeling guilty afterwards, looking at my hard dick but not sure if it would work if there was a real girl beside me, etc.) .
That is all for my reboot story for now. I hope after writing this post I will feel better, get over it and focus on my goals more sharply from now on. Thanks for reading my story and I wish you rebooters the best of luck. Remember that you are not alone in this deep shit and there is always light at the end of the tunnel. Even though I dont see it yet but let's just hang tight and do it one day at a time. Take care!
[feel free to leave a comment and share your opinion/experience. I will reply as much as I can]