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HumbleRich
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[I got on the laptop to write this post (hoorah), rather than using the Ipad or my smart phone, so there should be less typos.]
I have to celebrate something that happened yesterday, folks. I was outside saying goodbye to the students as they left, with a group of other teachers. This one coworker, who has become a bit of an acquaintance and who I am attracted to, was wearing a work-appropriate shirt, but it was still snug, emphasizing her form...
And I wasn't even tempted to look. I noticed, as I am sure anyone would, but I had no temptation to look at all. Had it been a year ago, I would have been awkwardly avoiding eye contact as I took peeks. Perhaps I would have been caught leering. But now I have no problem avoiding it. It doesn't even register. Regardless of how aesthetically pleasing I find a woman, I just have no temptation to leer.
And that brings me to the question: what is the connection between the two? Because I know that not all porn addicts become leerers. Not everyone with a porn addiction starts rudely staring at women. Not everyone does the "zombie stare" that I started doing very early in my addiction.
Why is it that some people have the addiction transfer to real life, while others don't?
And furthermore, why does getting rid of the porn addiction and compulsive masturbation miraculously cure the problem?
These questions still bother me, but perhaps it doesn't matter.
The point is that with each passing day I get better, become a more respectful person, and a better me.
Great stuff.
Rich
I have to celebrate something that happened yesterday, folks. I was outside saying goodbye to the students as they left, with a group of other teachers. This one coworker, who has become a bit of an acquaintance and who I am attracted to, was wearing a work-appropriate shirt, but it was still snug, emphasizing her form...
And I wasn't even tempted to look. I noticed, as I am sure anyone would, but I had no temptation to look at all. Had it been a year ago, I would have been awkwardly avoiding eye contact as I took peeks. Perhaps I would have been caught leering. But now I have no problem avoiding it. It doesn't even register. Regardless of how aesthetically pleasing I find a woman, I just have no temptation to leer.
And that brings me to the question: what is the connection between the two? Because I know that not all porn addicts become leerers. Not everyone with a porn addiction starts rudely staring at women. Not everyone does the "zombie stare" that I started doing very early in my addiction.
Why is it that some people have the addiction transfer to real life, while others don't?
And furthermore, why does getting rid of the porn addiction and compulsive masturbation miraculously cure the problem?
These questions still bother me, but perhaps it doesn't matter.
The point is that with each passing day I get better, become a more respectful person, and a better me.
Great stuff.
Rich