deeplearner_1988
New Member
Hi guys. This is the first time I am posting on NoFap. I'm looking for some hope, comfort and to see if someone can relate to my experience. Thanks in advance for your help!
I'm 32 yo.
I started M approx 4 to 10 times a week since I'm 12 but NOT with P.
Started watching P at around 20 yo but I've NEVER been an addict. Sometimes I could PMO 3 times in a day and other times not open a P website for 2 weeks.
Started sleeping with girls when I was 18.
From 18 to 30 yo I NEVER had any sexual problem. Not even once. No ED, No PE. I slept with a fair amount of womens in my life and it went perfectly 100% of the time. I was in total control of my D*** and super confident.
However, 6 months ago, after a break up with my ex, I started watching P websites more intensely for about 3 months. Then I decied to stop P for a while and found out after 4/5 days without PMO that I wasn't horny like I usually am. A week after, I hooked up with a girl, that I found attractive, we went to her room and I got ED for the first time in my life at 31 yo.
It was one of the most embarassing moment of my life. The girl was very nice about it, we talked, joked about it and one hour later my D*** suddenly restarted working and we had successful sex.
Problem is I am a very ANXIOUS person by nature, and this first failure shocked me pretty bad... At the point that 2 months later, I spent the next date I had with another girl thinking "Will I get hard tonight? Maybe I'm never going to be able to make love to a woman again...". And of course when we came home, nothing worked... This girl didn't take it very well...
That's when my mind started spiralling "Do I have a physical problem ? Maybe I took a wrong gym supplement ? Could it be my BCAA ? I have Low Testosterone maybe..."
Since then (was two months ago), I spent my time on "checking" if my D*** works and putting more and more pressure on myself. If I watch P, I can get to 100% erection but I'm nowhere near as excited as I was before. If I only use my mind with no P, most of time I get to 80% and sometimes to 100% but I really have to focus and to overcome the anxiety.
What worries me the most is that I feel that my Libido completely crashed down suddenly. I know I don't have a physical problem (cause I got checked by a doctor and everything is in order) but I used to be horny ALL the time, just looking at girls and be turned on, but for the past few months, the sight of a gorgeous girl doesn't produce any physical response in me anymore and it's stressing me out like crazy!
Testosterone levels : Tests came back OK
Morning Woods : OK. But not a strong as 6 months ago
Random boners : Sometimes, but they are like 50% strong.
Wet dreams: Haven't had a wet or even a sexy dream since my problems started.
Psychological state : Very anxious but I've always been and it never had any impact on my sex life.
Libido : Zero. I feel romanticaly attracted to womens, but not physically. It's like I'm SEEING them, but I can't FEEL them. If I kiss a girl, I get a tingling sensation down there but that's it. If I have a naked girl in my bed, I KNOW she is beautiful but I don't FEEL like I want her.
Relationship to womens: I always had healthy relationships toward womens. Always respected them, never objectified them or had weird fetishes.
It almost feels like I started a FLATLINE before even starting NoFap... Is this possible? Could I have exhausted myself with too much M?
Can someone relate to this? Do you think that is "normal" and can be reversed?
Do you think only the 3 months of higher P consumption could have triggered this?
I started NoFap a week ago and I'm pretty much in the same state: zero urge to P or M or O.
Thanks so much for your help guys! I'm really freaking out right now. I really start to believe that my sex life is over for good...
I'm 32 yo.
I started M approx 4 to 10 times a week since I'm 12 but NOT with P.
Started watching P at around 20 yo but I've NEVER been an addict. Sometimes I could PMO 3 times in a day and other times not open a P website for 2 weeks.
Started sleeping with girls when I was 18.
From 18 to 30 yo I NEVER had any sexual problem. Not even once. No ED, No PE. I slept with a fair amount of womens in my life and it went perfectly 100% of the time. I was in total control of my D*** and super confident.
However, 6 months ago, after a break up with my ex, I started watching P websites more intensely for about 3 months. Then I decied to stop P for a while and found out after 4/5 days without PMO that I wasn't horny like I usually am. A week after, I hooked up with a girl, that I found attractive, we went to her room and I got ED for the first time in my life at 31 yo.
It was one of the most embarassing moment of my life. The girl was very nice about it, we talked, joked about it and one hour later my D*** suddenly restarted working and we had successful sex.
Problem is I am a very ANXIOUS person by nature, and this first failure shocked me pretty bad... At the point that 2 months later, I spent the next date I had with another girl thinking "Will I get hard tonight? Maybe I'm never going to be able to make love to a woman again...". And of course when we came home, nothing worked... This girl didn't take it very well...
That's when my mind started spiralling "Do I have a physical problem ? Maybe I took a wrong gym supplement ? Could it be my BCAA ? I have Low Testosterone maybe..."
Since then (was two months ago), I spent my time on "checking" if my D*** works and putting more and more pressure on myself. If I watch P, I can get to 100% erection but I'm nowhere near as excited as I was before. If I only use my mind with no P, most of time I get to 80% and sometimes to 100% but I really have to focus and to overcome the anxiety.
What worries me the most is that I feel that my Libido completely crashed down suddenly. I know I don't have a physical problem (cause I got checked by a doctor and everything is in order) but I used to be horny ALL the time, just looking at girls and be turned on, but for the past few months, the sight of a gorgeous girl doesn't produce any physical response in me anymore and it's stressing me out like crazy!
Testosterone levels : Tests came back OK
Morning Woods : OK. But not a strong as 6 months ago
Random boners : Sometimes, but they are like 50% strong.
Wet dreams: Haven't had a wet or even a sexy dream since my problems started.
Psychological state : Very anxious but I've always been and it never had any impact on my sex life.
Libido : Zero. I feel romanticaly attracted to womens, but not physically. It's like I'm SEEING them, but I can't FEEL them. If I kiss a girl, I get a tingling sensation down there but that's it. If I have a naked girl in my bed, I KNOW she is beautiful but I don't FEEL like I want her.
Relationship to womens: I always had healthy relationships toward womens. Always respected them, never objectified them or had weird fetishes.
It almost feels like I started a FLATLINE before even starting NoFap... Is this possible? Could I have exhausted myself with too much M?
Can someone relate to this? Do you think that is "normal" and can be reversed?
Do you think only the 3 months of higher P consumption could have triggered this?
I started NoFap a week ago and I'm pretty much in the same state: zero urge to P or M or O.
Thanks so much for your help guys! I'm really freaking out right now. I really start to believe that my sex life is over for good...