Today is a day I?d like to say goodbye to you, you gave me a quick fix, comfort, taking away my worry and anxiety for years I?ve been a slave to you (addiction).
That feeling of comfort slowly was turning in to shame and putting myself down.
P and M and O became to sexting and trading pictures, and more shame and anxiety about my relationship with my girlfriend.
Today I say goodbye, there?s a hell of a rocky road before me, but when the rocks turns slowly in to sand I know I?ve made it. Eventhough I know there will be a rock somewhere now and then down the road to recovery. I know I
have to stay strong.
I relapsed and went on to reddit and PMOed this morning, but I have been free from PMO and had great sex with my girlfriend maybe once a week, maybe one or two weeks and I relapse one time and another two weeks free from PMO.
But I will set a goal for myself and keep writing here.
I have ADHD and OCD and they?re surely one of the reasons I have this addiction. And now it just have to stop, I?m tired of myself blaming myself and feeling shameful.
It?s the times when I?m home alone that?s the most difficult. I?ll start from here and I want to make a week at a time.
Day ONE.
I?ll keep myself busy and do my best to keep away from my phone and checking social media for triggers.
That feeling of comfort slowly was turning in to shame and putting myself down.
P and M and O became to sexting and trading pictures, and more shame and anxiety about my relationship with my girlfriend.
Today I say goodbye, there?s a hell of a rocky road before me, but when the rocks turns slowly in to sand I know I?ve made it. Eventhough I know there will be a rock somewhere now and then down the road to recovery. I know I
have to stay strong.
I relapsed and went on to reddit and PMOed this morning, but I have been free from PMO and had great sex with my girlfriend maybe once a week, maybe one or two weeks and I relapse one time and another two weeks free from PMO.
But I will set a goal for myself and keep writing here.
I have ADHD and OCD and they?re surely one of the reasons I have this addiction. And now it just have to stop, I?m tired of myself blaming myself and feeling shameful.
It?s the times when I?m home alone that?s the most difficult. I?ll start from here and I want to make a week at a time.
Day ONE.
I?ll keep myself busy and do my best to keep away from my phone and checking social media for triggers.