Day 1 started yesterday after sex call for what I hope is the last time. I have been addicted to this stuff for some 40 years. HSIP definitely accelerated it but was there first time I saw nude woman.
I am an "issues underlying" guy - tough tough times for my family -
Looking at nude women made it all go away. These issues haunt for sure - but as William One and Done says - do the hard 90 and then See where you are. First things
First. So one day in - last night utter hell- couldn't sleep and started having waves of panic fear and
Anxiety. Thought I was going to black out or die - just tried to breathe slowly and said this isn't real - I can make it thru thus without porn - after 30 minutes relief - cousins sleep but the fear anxiety and doom was gone. Small step but building block from Day 1.
Fear of job failure has been trigger for long time - not even sure how it all
Connects at this point - but not going to intellectualize this at that time.
Believe this disease likes us to try to fight it intellectually as it wins every time
Then. Must be fought with knowledge for sure but just do the time as William
and see where you are.
I am an "issues underlying" guy - tough tough times for my family -
Looking at nude women made it all go away. These issues haunt for sure - but as William One and Done says - do the hard 90 and then See where you are. First things
First. So one day in - last night utter hell- couldn't sleep and started having waves of panic fear and
Anxiety. Thought I was going to black out or die - just tried to breathe slowly and said this isn't real - I can make it thru thus without porn - after 30 minutes relief - cousins sleep but the fear anxiety and doom was gone. Small step but building block from Day 1.
Fear of job failure has been trigger for long time - not even sure how it all
Connects at this point - but not going to intellectualize this at that time.
Believe this disease likes us to try to fight it intellectually as it wins every time
Then. Must be fought with knowledge for sure but just do the time as William
and see where you are.