Porn addiction and asexuality

I see MANY and I mean MANY rebooters becoming interested and turned on by tranny and gay porn from porn addiction.

But I would like to ask,did anyone start feeling very asexual from all the porn consumption? Like does the idea of any sexual acts,naked bodies,intimacy etc. make you sick,very stressed or repulsed and you just dont want to do anything sexual? Like your brain is denying it all

I think nothing IRL was turning me on at all compared to the multiple porn sessions where I would view multiple vids per day.

So in that way I began to feel asexual. After these 90 days I have began to feel capable of loving another human again, it's incredible how numb I was before.

So in that way, I was asexual, or what sexuality I had was almost 100% wired to pixels.

What you described is called sexual anorexia.

Ocarinustino said:

I see MANY and I mean MANY rebooters becoming interested and turned on by tranny and gay porn from porn addiction.

But I would like to ask,did anyone start feeling very asexual from all the porn consumption? Like does the idea of any sexual acts,naked bodies,intimacy etc. make you sick,very stressed or repulsed and you just dont want to do anything sexual? Like your brain is denying it all

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It's because we aren't addicted to the "orgasm" or the sex, we're addicted to the "rush".  The rush comes from seeing incredible bodies, watching unrealistic sexual situations, and from knowing we have a "harem" of whatever we like when we like it. 

I think we get so caught up in that "rush", and some part of our brain realises that real human connection isn't like that.  This is why we can get to the point of not actually wanting to do anything sexual.  It's not that we consider real human contact to be "sick" or "disgusting", just that in this state, we'd prefer the convenience and ease of going back to our virtual world.  After all, real sex takes work.  It takes the effort of going and meeting real people.  It might require us to go through some rejections.  I suppose one could argue that using escorts is different, but even that takes a certain amount of effort in that we have to earn the money first.

My perspective is: I am on the start of my journey on no-PMO  so i am not feeling asexual, but at one point before no-PMO i did had those feelings of disgust, as like being repulsed by the porn I watched, but they didn't last very long because of the constant novelty of porn (you tend to forget them as the next day you watch porn). But definitely, I had those thoughts. You are not alone. The takeaway is: you felt disgust with porn and that may have been the first step of your brain confronting you with the fact that porn is NOT reality.

As I start my journey of no-PMO i feel the cravings are lessening. I intentionally try to lessen them. This tehnique here: http://www.yourbrainonporn.com/how-do-i-cope-with-porn-flashbacks of thinking about, for instance, a nice landscape and saying "peace"(with all the rest of the steps listed) helps me. Hope the cravings stay lessened or lessen even more.

Also, could not agree more with what @gnein said. We are addicted to the rush and it's hard to go back to normal relationships. In fact, we might not even be interested in real relationships because of all the potential hassle that we might face versus the ease and convenience of the rush/fantasy. But you got to ask yourself what do you want from your life and, to me, that's the starting point of recovery, because most of us would like to lead a normal life/settle with a girl/guy we love, and feel REAL emotions, and be free of the perversions and imagined(not real/not consistent with reality/definitely NOT healthy) world that porn brings.

Porn warped my reality so much that i looked for evidence in the real world about my fetishes being true and i interpreted some events that happened to me as if they confirm the porn fantasy i was indoctrinated in, but these events may have other legitimate reasons to exist. My point is when you build a belief system through porn you tend to pay attention to reality in a way that conforms to that belief system. The solution is to build a better belief system through interacting with real world and doing some sort of affirmations daily.

I know it has triggered depression in me, and when I'm feeling low I have prolonged periods of not feeling sexual at all. Weirdly, I find these periods quite contented. The problem is I always come back t an urge to view porn or role play in fetish chatrooms, which subconsciously probably made the depression worse. Vicious cycle, for years and years and years.

I totally agree with what focusedmind says in previous post though. I am so panicked and confused by the worst of my fetishes and acting out / role play that I am paranoid they are real and a true reflection of me. Previously I buried my online activity and never worried in real life about what I did online. Now I'm looking for evidence and searching my past (often more than 20 years ago) to support my fears and find evidence I'm a terrible person. I know this isn't healthy but it's become a habit, an obsession. I can't stop.