I need help

I've been trying to stop PMO since Nov 2015. Nothing's worked. I've had times where I don't pmo for several months, and then I relapse. I've been relapsing for about 4 months now and I need motivation to start pmo again. I'm scared that this damage to my brain is permanent and that I'll never be able to get it up again. Please help me

You need first to find what is your real reason why you want to stop PMO. I admit that finding the WHY is really hard to find but just keep meditating. Then find new goals and do new good habits. Think about the people who cares about you. I now it is really hard but always remember you are not alone. We can do it.