Today was yet another relapse day, day 4 of my 6th attempt to reboot this year. I've been trying to stop PMO on and off for probably 2 years, though in the beginning my intention was just to use P less because I use it to procrastinate among other things. After experiencing some small benefits from using P less, I decided to dig deeper, read YBOP and went down a rabbit hole that's eventually led me to here today.
I'm 32, been using P for 15 years and I accept that it is a problem. This is the first time I have reached out to a community regarding my PMO problems, but all the habit change literature stresses the importance of being a part of a community.
I plan to write an entry every 5 days. I seem to relapse on intervals of 5. My longest streak so far in 2019 was 19 days. Hopefully the journal will keep me motivated and help me work through the problem. Each entry will probably just be my experiences with each topic others have covered better than I likely will.
One thing that has amazed me during reading through the forum and YBOP is just how similar others experiences have been to mine. I'm constantly thinking, "yes, me too!", so although my story won't bring anything new to the community maybe someone will find comfort knowing they are not alone, get some motivation or find my perspective interesting. Maybe I'll just be yet another example for the people who are pushing the PMO problem into popular discourse. That's ok too.
I'm 32, been using P for 15 years and I accept that it is a problem. This is the first time I have reached out to a community regarding my PMO problems, but all the habit change literature stresses the importance of being a part of a community.
I plan to write an entry every 5 days. I seem to relapse on intervals of 5. My longest streak so far in 2019 was 19 days. Hopefully the journal will keep me motivated and help me work through the problem. Each entry will probably just be my experiences with each topic others have covered better than I likely will.
One thing that has amazed me during reading through the forum and YBOP is just how similar others experiences have been to mine. I'm constantly thinking, "yes, me too!", so although my story won't bring anything new to the community maybe someone will find comfort knowing they are not alone, get some motivation or find my perspective interesting. Maybe I'll just be yet another example for the people who are pushing the PMO problem into popular discourse. That's ok too.