Third day so far

Hello, guys, as you read above it's my third day dealing with this addiction, let us begin with the most harmful effects on me  :
- Anxiety whenever socializing with anyone.
_ My relationship with my Mom, dad and brothers is horrible, they don't know about my addiction and they don't know what is wrong with me.
-My academics didn't go so well the last semester and it had been degrading since I started that addiction.
- of course, I can't talk to girls, and I have no desire for talking to them, also I am not interested at all in having sex.
-Being depressed for the last two years, my mom keeps asking me "what is wrong with you?" and I can't tell her anything.
-Generally desensitization in all the aspects of my life.
-Can't feel happy unless it is some porn on the screen.
That is all I can think about, for now, I have some anger issues when it comes to stopping porn, and I have to hide til that anger go away, otherwise, I would burst out on the next person I see, and I am optimistic because I am approaching a new method this time.
P.S: English is not my native language.

same condition that i faced in my past. first  made a group of friends that involve girls and boys both. and go out of home. your anexity level will get lower. and start to do meditation it will helps you.

I am new to this but I can say that this community we have our backs. My addiction to pornography all started because I didn't have my parents attention. And I probably guess that is the same for all of us but keep it up. We all are trying to get out of this hole and is just uncontrollable. But the thing is that we lose integrity.