pruthukkc
Active Member
Whats up rebooters! 
Today i relapsed i cant control myself and jerk off by watching p. I am trying recovered from this addiction from past 2 years but i failed so many times and my highest peak without pmo was 42 days! after that i relapsed so many times and i stopped making my journal, i thought ignoring p addiction thoughts will recover me but it fails. My fighting tools were exercise, meditation,yoga etc. against p but i never attempt consistency and relapsed in between after that i depressed and try again to fight. So day i relapsed i got strong urges and skipped my workout(legs day ;D) i jerked off 2 times its fine to me because l learned not to depress once again and still fight for recovery. YES I AM ADDICTED TO PORNOGRAPHY AND ACCEPTED THIS I decide to make my journal once again.
In life we suffered so many things we thought we search happiness in future or achieve something in future and then we will be peaceful but that is not true because life is river which flows and its anybodies out of control we cannot handle external situations. I wrote this because i inspired by one incident which happen yesterday, In my town there was a milk shop and one poor boy work as servant in this shop he is 19-20 years old, we are not friends but we know each other. In faced so many difficulties because of poverty and worked 2-3 jobs for survive, but still he was happy. I saw him 2-3 days before and today i read in newspaper that in highway accident, truck crushed his head and he dead so terribly! I really shocked by this but i learned so many things by this incident. YOU HAVE NO CONTROL ON YOUR LIFE AS WE THINK BECAUSE LIFE, NATURE WILL GIVE YOU ALL TYPES OF HORRIBLE SITUATIONS IN LIFE SO BE PREPARE MENTALLY AND HAVE GOOD MINDSET TO LIVE YOUR LIFE FULLY 8)PIED, WITHDRAWALS,ED ETC ARE FRUITS OF OUR KARMA WHICH NATURE GIVE US AND ITS NECESSARY BECAUSE SO MANY LIVES RUINED BY THIS ADDICTION, WE NEVER THOUGHT WHAT HAPPEN THOSE PORN STARS, HOW THEY LIVES THERE LIVES ETC WE JUST RUNNING FOR OUR SEXUAL PLEASURE THATS A TRUTH. SO THIS LESSONS MAKE US STRONG DURING REBOOT I I I THINK I DEMAND SO MUCH PORN AND NOW ITS TIME TO STOP TILL MY LAST BREATH BECAUSE ITS RUINED SO MANY LIVE PEOPLES ARE SUFFERED ALL SUFFERED LONG LASTING BECAUSE OF 10 MIN. PLEASURE. I KNEW ALL THIS THINGS INTELLECTUALLY BUT NOW I UNDERSTAND BY HEART ITS MESSED UP WITH SO MANY AND ITS NOT GOOD FOR HUMAN BEING
This is day one of reboot i fight till my last breath.
NEVER GIVE UP!
Today i relapsed i cant control myself and jerk off by watching p. I am trying recovered from this addiction from past 2 years but i failed so many times and my highest peak without pmo was 42 days! after that i relapsed so many times and i stopped making my journal, i thought ignoring p addiction thoughts will recover me but it fails. My fighting tools were exercise, meditation,yoga etc. against p but i never attempt consistency and relapsed in between after that i depressed and try again to fight. So day i relapsed i got strong urges and skipped my workout(legs day ;D) i jerked off 2 times its fine to me because l learned not to depress once again and still fight for recovery. YES I AM ADDICTED TO PORNOGRAPHY AND ACCEPTED THIS I decide to make my journal once again.
In life we suffered so many things we thought we search happiness in future or achieve something in future and then we will be peaceful but that is not true because life is river which flows and its anybodies out of control we cannot handle external situations. I wrote this because i inspired by one incident which happen yesterday, In my town there was a milk shop and one poor boy work as servant in this shop he is 19-20 years old, we are not friends but we know each other. In faced so many difficulties because of poverty and worked 2-3 jobs for survive, but still he was happy. I saw him 2-3 days before and today i read in newspaper that in highway accident, truck crushed his head and he dead so terribly! I really shocked by this but i learned so many things by this incident. YOU HAVE NO CONTROL ON YOUR LIFE AS WE THINK BECAUSE LIFE, NATURE WILL GIVE YOU ALL TYPES OF HORRIBLE SITUATIONS IN LIFE SO BE PREPARE MENTALLY AND HAVE GOOD MINDSET TO LIVE YOUR LIFE FULLY 8)PIED, WITHDRAWALS,ED ETC ARE FRUITS OF OUR KARMA WHICH NATURE GIVE US AND ITS NECESSARY BECAUSE SO MANY LIVES RUINED BY THIS ADDICTION, WE NEVER THOUGHT WHAT HAPPEN THOSE PORN STARS, HOW THEY LIVES THERE LIVES ETC WE JUST RUNNING FOR OUR SEXUAL PLEASURE THATS A TRUTH. SO THIS LESSONS MAKE US STRONG DURING REBOOT I I I THINK I DEMAND SO MUCH PORN AND NOW ITS TIME TO STOP TILL MY LAST BREATH BECAUSE ITS RUINED SO MANY LIVE PEOPLES ARE SUFFERED ALL SUFFERED LONG LASTING BECAUSE OF 10 MIN. PLEASURE. I KNEW ALL THIS THINGS INTELLECTUALLY BUT NOW I UNDERSTAND BY HEART ITS MESSED UP WITH SO MANY AND ITS NOT GOOD FOR HUMAN BEING
This is day one of reboot i fight till my last breath.
NEVER GIVE UP!
