NOFAPSuccess2018
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Why do I keep going in and out of FLATLINE? No relapses or fapping, today is day 318. I know I was seriously addicted to both fapping and porn for at least 5 years. But I'm 43, I'm pretty sure I have PAWS, when do I get out for good? Like no more FLATLINES.... I keep track, today is my first UP day in 13 days. I have had one major FLATLINE of 43 days in the beginning, and a total of 17 FLATLINES, the last of which just ended. I feel amazing today. Chest thumping amazing. Socially good, and happy. I felt like hammered ass yesterday, wondering if the world would be better off without me. A week ago, something changed in my reboot, and I no longer crave sweets, which I have been a sugar monster for 13 years, since beginning to watch porn in 2006. Appetite is way down. Someone please, please tell me, is this shitty roller coaster almost over? Please answer. Will the cycle stop? Am I almost there? I have not viewed hardcore porn since August of 2016. I have not fapped or viewed p- subs in 318 days. Someone please, I'm great today, but I'm sick of the week up week down.....not sure I want to live this way forever.....will I ever be normal again??????
Breakdown of later recovery:
Day 194: sensitization fading- times of day I usually fapped, I would get horny previously. I noticed on this day that wasn't happening anymore.
Day 218- obsessive sexual thoughts fading. This date I noticed that I no longer looked at women as just objects or parts, but looked at their faces and saw people. I saw beauty in all forms.
Day 234- vision became 3D and hyper clear. Noticed all colors clearer
Day 266- had great sex, pied over? Fading? Still get anxious about it.....
Day 303- appetite down, no more sugar cravings.
Am I almost there? Gabe? Anyone? What was your experience?
Breakdown of later recovery:
Day 194: sensitization fading- times of day I usually fapped, I would get horny previously. I noticed on this day that wasn't happening anymore.
Day 218- obsessive sexual thoughts fading. This date I noticed that I no longer looked at women as just objects or parts, but looked at their faces and saw people. I saw beauty in all forms.
Day 234- vision became 3D and hyper clear. Noticed all colors clearer
Day 266- had great sex, pied over? Fading? Still get anxious about it.....
Day 303- appetite down, no more sugar cravings.
Am I almost there? Gabe? Anyone? What was your experience?