All for one goal: stop PMO for good

allforone

Member
43 years old, started PMO when i was 22 years old. PMO has had a lot of negative impact on my life. I began to have occasional PIED in my early 30s. Now it is getting much worse. 

I stopped PMO for 30 days in September 2018. I didn't see a lot of progress but I was definitely feeling better.  If I had visited this website then, I would not have relapsed.

Here I am today and determined to get over PMO for good. I stopped it on June 15th.

Keep faith. Let's do it together!
 

bob

Respected Member
Welcome back. Hope you find the support and confidence to take this to fruition.

Peace
 

allforone

Member
Day 4:

To be PMO free seems to be a no-brainer so far after I got to know the damage PMO is doing to us. Porn didn't come to my mind at all as long as I keep myself busy.

I know it is still too early to tell but so far I am confident that I can keep myself sober till the end of the tunnel.
 

allforone

Member
I want to write something today because the temptation came today, faster than I expected. I came across pictures of a few nice looking ladies(not porn) , the impulse of PMO arise quietly. Glad I was able to kill the desire eventually. But boy I was hesitating for one second.

Keep faith! PMO-free for good.
 

allforone

Member
Oh God I was craving for sex when I saw the beautiful ladies at dinner.

I am glad I am updating this journal now saying I am able to get over it today.

 

workinprogressUK

Well-Known Member
allforone said:
Oh God I was craving for sex when I saw the beautiful ladies at dinner.

I am glad I am updating this journal now saying I am able to get over it today.

Nice work. Must have been very challenging. Congrats on weathering the storm.
 

allforone

Member
12 days clean now and counting :)  so far I just crave for sex but no desire for PMO. I guess once you realize how much damage PMO is doing to us then it is not an option for me anymore. I hope my mindset continues toward this direction.

One question regarding flatline: When I see females, my mind is craving for intimacy with them but down below there is no response at all. is this flatline?

or does flatline means that both my mind and body have no desire for women?
 

workinprogressUK

Well-Known Member
no definitive answers, but flatline for me was that pretty well all emotion were turned way down low. Happiness, desire, libido, anger.... just generally in a suppressed emotional state.
 

allforone

Member
15 clean days . I had O twice between day 6 and day 10.

I decide to cut O and get into hard mode completely, hoping for a faster recovery.

 

allforone

Member
15 days:

I cannot help eyeing nice girls when I am out in the public spaces but down below I don't feel anything.

I hope one day I can get an erection when just looking at them.  Man I miss that feeling!

 

allforone

Member
On the 15th day of no PMO,  it seems PMO is not going to be an issue for quite some time at least. I don't see myself to relapse in the near future at all. I wonder why I did it for so long. It seems PMO doesn't bother me anymore. I am just waiting for my life down there to come back.
 
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