Hey guys, I'm looking to reboot for 150 days. No Porn, Masturbation, Orgasm, or Real Sex. My struggle started when I was 12, when I masturbated to a girl in a thong in a 50 cent music video. The experience was mind blowing, and I was instantly hooked on masturbation. Although I mastubated regularly, I usually did it in my mind fantasizing about hot celebrities or girls that I thought were hot at school. This eventually led me back to the computer when I was around 13 where I would look at soft porn (women in bikinis, tight clothes, older girls from my high school in bikinis on Facebook). These images would blow my mind and greatly arouse me. I would masturbate to these pictures and fantasize about these women sometimes 3-4 times a day. This sapped all the energy out of me and took away my drive. I may have seen a few pornographic photos between 13-14, but would feel overly guilty for looking at them and stay away for a while. Eventually, soft porn wasn't as satisfying as it had been. I needed and wanted more. When I was 15, I began to watch porn regularly, and wow was it amazing. I had access to any women and to see anything I could possibly imagine them doing. By the time I was 17, on some days, I would sit in my room and masturbate to porn sometimes 5 times a day. This was my low point. I'm a Christian and deep down I knew how wrong it was. I was depressed, and I had lost the majority of my friends in high school, because I simply just wasn't the same person I had been in the past. I played Football and was good at that. This kept me away from porn some. Anyways, I felt miserable and convicted in my heart to quit porn, but how was I suppose to do that? The next year (senior year). I slowly began to watch porn less and things started to get better, but I still couldn't fully stop.
After high school, the summer before college, I went and worked at a Christian camp for the summer. Here is where I experienced my first minor victory over porn. I was greatly encouraged and befriended my many awesome people. While I was there I went 50 days without PMO. During these 50 days I felt amazing. I had feelings that I thought I would never have again return to me. I literally became my old self again, and people liked me again. I was funny. I was friendly. I was me. I had more attraction to women then ever and more confidence to be myself.
Eventually camp ended and college started and I relapsed and have been going back and forth fighting PMO. I've had minor periods where I refrain from PMO but nothing like those 50 days. I am now a Junior in college, and though I know I don't have severe porn induced ED. I know it has affected me.
For example, I notice attractive girls on campus but my body doesn't respond with near as much of a sexual urge as it did when I was 12-16. Another example, I can masturbate without porn but it's not as satisfying or intense as it once was. My erections don't last as long as they used to and they aren't near as strong.
So at this moment I'm on Day 4 of my 150 day reboot. Why 150 days? I donno, I just want to really make sure my body resets sexually. I want sex with my wife some day to feel as natural and innocent and new to me as it normally should. When I make it to day 150, I will set a new goal. Please encourage me and pray for me that I can do this. I will post every 3-4 days about my progress. Good luck to you all!
After high school, the summer before college, I went and worked at a Christian camp for the summer. Here is where I experienced my first minor victory over porn. I was greatly encouraged and befriended my many awesome people. While I was there I went 50 days without PMO. During these 50 days I felt amazing. I had feelings that I thought I would never have again return to me. I literally became my old self again, and people liked me again. I was funny. I was friendly. I was me. I had more attraction to women then ever and more confidence to be myself.
Eventually camp ended and college started and I relapsed and have been going back and forth fighting PMO. I've had minor periods where I refrain from PMO but nothing like those 50 days. I am now a Junior in college, and though I know I don't have severe porn induced ED. I know it has affected me.
For example, I notice attractive girls on campus but my body doesn't respond with near as much of a sexual urge as it did when I was 12-16. Another example, I can masturbate without porn but it's not as satisfying or intense as it once was. My erections don't last as long as they used to and they aren't near as strong.
So at this moment I'm on Day 4 of my 150 day reboot. Why 150 days? I donno, I just want to really make sure my body resets sexually. I want sex with my wife some day to feel as natural and innocent and new to me as it normally should. When I make it to day 150, I will set a new goal. Please encourage me and pray for me that I can do this. I will post every 3-4 days about my progress. Good luck to you all!