GooseTrader
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Could write forever, but I'll try to keep it short. I'm 24 and have struggled with porn addiction since I was 12. Started with straight but by the time I was in HS I was heavy into shemales, some gay, and even kiddie(very ashamed) . Had chances to sleep with over a dozen girls in HS and college but ED always got the best of me. It was horrible being with girls I really liked but not being able to get it up for them. After it happened a few times, I realized I had a real problem on my hands. I was masturbating 2-4 times a day. I had to settle for HJs and BJs from girls, almost every single time having to use my imagination rather than enjoying whats right in front of me.
I went on a reboot for about 35 days about 4 years ago, lost my virginity to a girl on a beach trip, then started relapsing. I am currently engaged, have been with her for 2 and a half years now. In between that first reboot attempt and us starting to date, I was successful with sex a couple of times with 1 other girl, but also failed with 4 other girls. My fianc? was the first one I was able to have sex with without much ED(1 in maybe 7 times I won't be able to, or we will start and I'll lose it halfway through).
My fiance knows I used to have a porn addiction, we talked about it and I told her I was over it. We have sex anywhere from twice a day to twice a week, and I can tell that when i masturbate more often, I don't enjoy sex as much and its harder for me to keep it up.
Due current jobs, we have to live apart for a few months. Perfect time for a no PMO reboot(well mostly no O we will still have sex when we see each other, a few Os a month). She knows I'm going to stop masturbating, but not Bc I'm back into porn again. I can't tell her I'm back into this shit... I actually stopped for 2 weeks June while we were apart, made a huge difference, but as soon as we had sex again I started to relapse. I love this girl for much more than my ability to have sex with her, she means the world to me and I can't let this go on.
Anyways, after telling myself "this is the last time" 6 times this week, I finally put my foot (well, hand) down. Today is Day 1. First obstacle last night was seeing a favorite TV character(Haley from MF) in a sexual position. I resisted and will call that victory number 1.
I went on a reboot for about 35 days about 4 years ago, lost my virginity to a girl on a beach trip, then started relapsing. I am currently engaged, have been with her for 2 and a half years now. In between that first reboot attempt and us starting to date, I was successful with sex a couple of times with 1 other girl, but also failed with 4 other girls. My fianc? was the first one I was able to have sex with without much ED(1 in maybe 7 times I won't be able to, or we will start and I'll lose it halfway through).
My fiance knows I used to have a porn addiction, we talked about it and I told her I was over it. We have sex anywhere from twice a day to twice a week, and I can tell that when i masturbate more often, I don't enjoy sex as much and its harder for me to keep it up.
Due current jobs, we have to live apart for a few months. Perfect time for a no PMO reboot(well mostly no O we will still have sex when we see each other, a few Os a month). She knows I'm going to stop masturbating, but not Bc I'm back into porn again. I can't tell her I'm back into this shit... I actually stopped for 2 weeks June while we were apart, made a huge difference, but as soon as we had sex again I started to relapse. I love this girl for much more than my ability to have sex with her, she means the world to me and I can't let this go on.
Anyways, after telling myself "this is the last time" 6 times this week, I finally put my foot (well, hand) down. Today is Day 1. First obstacle last night was seeing a favorite TV character(Haley from MF) in a sexual position. I resisted and will call that victory number 1.