My Story and Questions I Have About Rebooting

grahamman

Member
I'm 18 years old and started masturbating at age 13. Didn't really consistently watch until I was about 14, but then I would do it once sometimes twice a day (probably since age 15). I didn't really notice anything until about 10 days ago I went soft on myself masturbating. Oddly enough two days later a girl tried to give me oral sex and I went soft halfway through. I don't feel completely dead down there but I feel it could be better. I've not watched any porn the past 10 days or masturbated at all. Since then I've had 3 morning woods (2 soft 1 hard). This girl that gave me oral sex has been texting me somewhat dirty stuff that has been getting me decently aroused. I'm not sure if this is bad for the reboot since it's not actually a real interaction, but I don't visualize porn or anything when she talks dirty to me, but rather about the time we hooked up. Just wondering if I should stop that or if it's okay with the reboot. I don't even feel how a flatline is possible right now since things are improving, even if those improvements are very very slow. My libido may have gone down a tiny bit in the past 10 days but it's still there. I wanna know what's the soonest I could have successful sex/oral sex with this girl. I could care less if I didn't masturbate or watch porn for the rest of my life, I just wanna have a real partner and now that I have one that's willing I wanna be able to get hard for her and soon. Thanks.
 

TheBadger

Member
Hey Grahamman,

Well done on catching this early as a lot of people don't realise till they are older. You sound like you were moving into progressively worsening PIED before you found porn to be the problem. In reply to the dirty texting, i would try to avoid it along with fantasy as we don't really know how it effects people. I think you should prepare yourself for a flatline just in case. I had a week or so of feeling on top of the world before i hit flatline.
Also, there is no way of telling how long it will take you too recover. Not to put you down but I thought i would be better in 8 weeks and ended up taking 5 months instead- its different for everyone.


 

TheBadger

Member
Also have a read of this- i kinda tried to categorise some different aspects of porn addiction.

http://legacy.rebootnation.org/index.php?topic=1790.msg17284#msg17284
 

grahamman

Member
Hey JohnDoe6,

Read your post. Very informative. I don't feel I'm addicted to porn at all because once I realized the harm it can do to your brain I dropped it completely and have had no urge to watch it. I don't believe it's a flatline because I have been getting morning wood and have tiny sparks of libido here and there (when my girl texts me dirty which I will now avoid or at least fantasizing about her with the texting). Hopefully I caught it early enough that I won't have to go through withdrawals but I'm prepared regardless. It's been 11 days and I've seen slight improvement. Again I don't care about ever looking at porn again. I just want to be able to have sex with this girl hopefully before the reboot is completely over (maybe be ready to have sex in a month). Just wondering if there's a possibility of that or if I'm just wasting my time thinking about it.
 

TheBadger

Member
To be totally honest Grahamman there is no way of telling how long it will take you to recover. I guess people who don't flatline tend to recover quicker as their recovery is more similar to an older mans recovery. I really would advice not to place a date on your recovery as you will never know what will happen during the next week :) it's good you are thinking about this stuff but just keep pushing through and you will be able to have sex again!
 
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