Hello everyone,
So my husband is deployed right now. He has been gone for over 6 months, came to see us for a month and he is gone for another 5 months. When he was home, our sex wasn't the greatest, when we did it I felt like he was disconnected. He said it is because of his new keto diet. Which for me whas a bit odd. A guy who havent had sex for 6 months suddenly doesn't care for it? I thought perhaps it was because he got fat or just getting old. We have been married for 9 years and he stopped watching porn since 2014. I snooped around on his phone and his computer but couldn't find anything other than deleted mp4 file that said explicit and it made me think perhaps it is a song..I am not good with computers like he is. I know he downloaded movies and tv shows because he is bored but it got me thinking what else he downloads. I know that some of guys in his work share movies and he did admit that he saw porn on one of the drives but he watched few second and turned off. . But lately, I have this feeling that he is back to watching and everytime I ask him he denies. I don't know what to do anymore. Am I overacting? What should I do? I don't want to make him feel like I don't trust him because I do, thought we did good but after talking to him for few days he started to get all pissy how he doesn't get full data and gets easily annoying with me. We have never done a year apart so I thought perhaps all this anger it is from being away from each other but as I am noticing more and more same behaviour when he watched porn 4 years ago. I don't know, any advice would be great. I don't how to talk to him, should I write him an email? Honestly I don't want to know because it is going to be over with my marriage. He knows that this time I'm not staying with him.
So my husband is deployed right now. He has been gone for over 6 months, came to see us for a month and he is gone for another 5 months. When he was home, our sex wasn't the greatest, when we did it I felt like he was disconnected. He said it is because of his new keto diet. Which for me whas a bit odd. A guy who havent had sex for 6 months suddenly doesn't care for it? I thought perhaps it was because he got fat or just getting old. We have been married for 9 years and he stopped watching porn since 2014. I snooped around on his phone and his computer but couldn't find anything other than deleted mp4 file that said explicit and it made me think perhaps it is a song..I am not good with computers like he is. I know he downloaded movies and tv shows because he is bored but it got me thinking what else he downloads. I know that some of guys in his work share movies and he did admit that he saw porn on one of the drives but he watched few second and turned off. . But lately, I have this feeling that he is back to watching and everytime I ask him he denies. I don't know what to do anymore. Am I overacting? What should I do? I don't want to make him feel like I don't trust him because I do, thought we did good but after talking to him for few days he started to get all pissy how he doesn't get full data and gets easily annoying with me. We have never done a year apart so I thought perhaps all this anger it is from being away from each other but as I am noticing more and more same behaviour when he watched porn 4 years ago. I don't know, any advice would be great. I don't how to talk to him, should I write him an email? Honestly I don't want to know because it is going to be over with my marriage. He knows that this time I'm not staying with him.