Starting over again after a relapse after successfull 1 month

In brief, Im 24 and a severe porn addict for around 13 years now. i started quitting porn 5 years ago. but failed 1000 times till today. so far from things that i tried to use as a support or a helping hand or as a motivation to quit porn, your website(reboot-nation) and YBOP.com is the best. ive read the starter article and have gained a basic understanding of how brain works on addiction and the symptoms and the withdawal symps on quitting. Gabe's first video on reboot-nation youtube channel was my great educator and motivation as it was leading me in the right manner or methods to quit porn. i gave up all social networks, unistalled them from my phone, disabled youtube especially. and many more networks which may trigger me at some point. I gave up fantasies in my mind. whenever a negative thought comes, i immediately ignore that and try to focus on some other intesting stuff. The reason for the relapsing last time is because of another trigger(almost uncontrllable) which i was unaware of until replasing which was staying up late nights and working in my laptop which triggered somehow my mind..and another one difficult for me to escape is desire sleeping naked. this one i have never done before in my lifetime. but i dont even remember how this started. but somehow i have to escape this too. so i decided to sleep in my parents room, in India this is the culture. most of the homes we all family sleep in one room, by conversating with each other before sleep. shaing stories. so i should never sleep alone until i successfully reboot. Also i suffer from pemature ejaculation(ejaculation so soon <= 30 seconds - i belive this issue is caused due to porn - because of highly sensitized pathways).

I just wanted to write this first post to tell that i failed more than 1000 times from recovering, but still im taking a chance one more time and i believe that this time i will be successfull inshallah.

Also a great salute and thanks from the heart to the YBOP founders and maintainers and Gabe Deem especially. you are awesome and cool. keep up the good work man. i loved your first video playing piano - funny..

I believe i'll post my second post after a month from now as a successfull recovery / reboot for just one month which is like drop of ink in a ocean when compared with my 13 years of porn. I have many experiences to tell from this 13 years of porn, but i prefer to hide them as they are extremely disliked by anyone. if i tell what are all the things done by me as a porn addict, no one of you will come to me. but everything i did was distacnce. ive never had a real intercourse with any woman and i never know what real intercourse feels like. but iwas a gay once upon a time before 5 years not any more. i really quit that for good. now i have deep desires only for woman.

Once again thanks for the great support and research on this filthy industry. I'll post my second post after 1 month from now. expecting positive results

Thank you so much for sharing!

You were able to go 1 month? that's crazy man I wish I'll get one month one day too.

anyways I just wanted to give you some encouragement and tell you that your story was very inspiring and I think that you have what it takes to do it.

Good luck on the beginning of your new streak and know that I am rooting for you.

Hello ansari,

To educate yourself and learn about your trigget mechanisms is really helping your rewiring. Talking about how you feel during the rewiring can help you to stay off PMO. If you wish, come back any time and keep us updated on whatever happens. In every case, we're all fighting the same thing!

OBY said:

Thank you so much for sharing!

You were able to go 1 month? that's crazy man I wish I'll get one month one day too.

anyways I just wanted to give you some encouragement and tell you that your story was very inspiring and I think that you have what it takes to do it.

Good luck on the beginning of your new streak and know that I am rooting for you.

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Thanks for reading my post and for the reply. I am very much excited that you are supporting me..wonderful..
I have acheived my 1 month streak full cleann..
Here is my second post submitted few seconds ago..
http://legacy.rebootnation.org/index.php?topic=18716.0

Hello, I really encourage you to keep up, there is light at the end of the tunnel. It's not your fault but the thing happening behind porn addiction. The more you watch, the more shocking materials your reward circuits demand. All gays and lesbians have been hijacked by this reward mechanism. Thanks to Gary for this great revelation for all the time.
You still have the opportunity to regain what you lost so far. Don't be gay because you are a man.
Remember that it's not the beginning or the middle that count but the end. Get out of this darkness. Porn is devil.

Last thing I always say is that : If you don't fuck porn and things that trigger it to your reward circuits, porn will fuck you for your life.