I am about to turn 41 and have never had any issues with ED until about 2 months ago. The embarrassment was overwhelming but fortunately I have been with the same woman for 22 years so she was completely understanding. Since the first time it happened a couple months ago it has happened every time since. 5 more times to be exact. After the forth time I decided to go see my doctor. I knew I needed to fix myself and I knew that was the first step. I got a perfect bill of health and he said it was all in my head. He gave me a cialis script to help me through my struggles.
I had a hard time believing I needed drugs to get it up seeing that I was completely healthy. That's when I started doing research and discovered a possible porn link to my problem. I'll never admit to my wife about my porn addiction but that seems to be the only thing that makes sense right now. I have been kind of addicted to PMO for over 20 years and more so the past 16 years since we've had high speed internet. Usually once a day I had some alone time to feed my addiction. About 4 months ago I discovered VR porn. That sent me over the edge with excitement. I never felt like I was cheating when watching regular porn because I figured I was normal. My wife and I still had sex, great sex mind you, on a regular basis. The guilt I felt after my VR binges was too much and now that I have ED issues I am determined to fix myself. I had the house to myself 4 days after Christmas and I indulged every evening for about 2 hours each session. Before Christmas it was 2 or 3 days a week with the VR dance since I discovered it a few months ago. Did VR porn do this to me?
I discovered nofap and the benefits it could have for my problem. I started no PMO on Dec. 29th and was pleased with the results until my wife and I got together a couple days ago. I thought I was ready. I was completely turned on. We were hot and heavy but I couldn't get it up. She is upset because she thinks it's her even though I try to reassure it's not. I ended up popping a pill and a couple hours later I was able to perform and got the job done. And the mess I made because of the semen retention was epic. Way more than I've ever produced.
I don't know what gives. A couple weeks after I started nofap I had morning wood again. I had accidental spontaneous chubby's if I seen a hot girl on FB or a sexy girl at the store. I do try to scroll past the hot chicks on social media because I read that isn't good either during the reboot process. My wife turned me on with little the movements she'd make. Ya know...like just doing dishes or getting dressed or when she'd give me the seductive look. We have always been flirtatious even after all these years.
I don't want to rely on drugs the rest of my life. That one 5mg Cialis pill I took made me feel like crap for the past 24 hours. I have taken supplements over the past 15 years mainly because I like to work out and stay fit and some of the benefits of the supplements is positive bedroom performance. They don't seem to be working for my ED either. I am 100% committed to never viewing porn again if this fixes me. I just hope if porn was my problem then I am not one who needs months or years to reboot. My wife deserves great sex from me. Maybe my performance anxiety is getting the better of me now. I don't know.
I finally talked to my dad today about my ED and was hoping he'd share a similar story when he was my age and words of encouragement but he said it's never happened to him. I call BS but I can only take him at his word.
Any words of encouragement or advice would be appreciated because right now I feel just completely discouraged.
I had a hard time believing I needed drugs to get it up seeing that I was completely healthy. That's when I started doing research and discovered a possible porn link to my problem. I'll never admit to my wife about my porn addiction but that seems to be the only thing that makes sense right now. I have been kind of addicted to PMO for over 20 years and more so the past 16 years since we've had high speed internet. Usually once a day I had some alone time to feed my addiction. About 4 months ago I discovered VR porn. That sent me over the edge with excitement. I never felt like I was cheating when watching regular porn because I figured I was normal. My wife and I still had sex, great sex mind you, on a regular basis. The guilt I felt after my VR binges was too much and now that I have ED issues I am determined to fix myself. I had the house to myself 4 days after Christmas and I indulged every evening for about 2 hours each session. Before Christmas it was 2 or 3 days a week with the VR dance since I discovered it a few months ago. Did VR porn do this to me?
I discovered nofap and the benefits it could have for my problem. I started no PMO on Dec. 29th and was pleased with the results until my wife and I got together a couple days ago. I thought I was ready. I was completely turned on. We were hot and heavy but I couldn't get it up. She is upset because she thinks it's her even though I try to reassure it's not. I ended up popping a pill and a couple hours later I was able to perform and got the job done. And the mess I made because of the semen retention was epic. Way more than I've ever produced.
I don't know what gives. A couple weeks after I started nofap I had morning wood again. I had accidental spontaneous chubby's if I seen a hot girl on FB or a sexy girl at the store. I do try to scroll past the hot chicks on social media because I read that isn't good either during the reboot process. My wife turned me on with little the movements she'd make. Ya know...like just doing dishes or getting dressed or when she'd give me the seductive look. We have always been flirtatious even after all these years.
I don't want to rely on drugs the rest of my life. That one 5mg Cialis pill I took made me feel like crap for the past 24 hours. I have taken supplements over the past 15 years mainly because I like to work out and stay fit and some of the benefits of the supplements is positive bedroom performance. They don't seem to be working for my ED either. I am 100% committed to never viewing porn again if this fixes me. I just hope if porn was my problem then I am not one who needs months or years to reboot. My wife deserves great sex from me. Maybe my performance anxiety is getting the better of me now. I don't know.
I finally talked to my dad today about my ED and was hoping he'd share a similar story when he was my age and words of encouragement but he said it's never happened to him. I call BS but I can only take him at his word.
Any words of encouragement or advice would be appreciated because right now I feel just completely discouraged.