Second day without pornographic

I feel today was, good. School went well but I still need to turn a paper in about a story. I secretly wrote about my story. About what happened. Of course, I didn't write that this story is real because I feel scared to share my feelings. Basically, scared of people judging me. I already have my family that judges my style I don't need my whole community to judge me too. I feel like writing about my day to the public without nobody knowing my identity makes me worry less about my problems because is hard to tell people how you feel. I guess for me pornographic was a way to forget about my emotionally mentally pain just like some people do it with drugs. Today as a present someone gave me a new tablet. I think is an advantage to get out of watching pornographic because my brain is thinking why would you do that?