Re: 45 tired of pmo, and pied

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Jbow

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I'm back..I was formerly jaystock. Somehow I got logged out, and I couldn't get logged back in. Anyways, I'm back, and I'm doing great
I've been in a pickup all day, with a ton of time to kill, and porn hasn't even crossed my mind. Probably because I've Ben trying g to get this new account opened. Jees o pete, what a job. Hang tough guys, porn is never an option.
 
bob

bob

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Hey Jaystock,

I appreciate your thoughts. It does make it easier to know your out there too. We can do this buddy!

bob

When you click on your counter, you can start a new one and then type in the days you want, i.e. from a date that was 69 days previously.

Good luck

 
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Jbow

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Finally, I got my pmo tracker up and running. It's gonna be a long day of sitting in a pickup. I must keep busy. I got my crossword today, and it's supposed to be cooling down, so maybe I'll do some walking. Stay strong guys. Porn is never an option.
 
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Jbow

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Well gentlemen, I'm pushing 80 days clean...and to be honest,  I don't feel any different. I know I'm a better person, and I've been fighting demons everyday. I guess that's something. I've noticed that my mind tries to think about crazy, bizarre things. I notice I've gotten good at dismissing those ideas. Stay strong fellas. Porn is never an option
 
bob

bob

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Jay,

I am so proud of you. I also understand what you mean that the pull is still there. I am realizing that it will never go away. I just have to figure out some way to effectively keep it at bay. And, with time, I am hoping those burning embers fade.

Peace
 
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Jbow

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Happy Monday to all the fellow rebooters. It sure feel odd to not think about porn all the time. It's been my best friend since 1988.  Just feel so many different emotions now. How crazy is this ride we are on. Have a good day guys.
 
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Jbow

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Well I've made it. I'm hoping the mayor of my town will throw a parade for me, but I'm not holding my breath. I have to admit life without porn is a whole lot better. I still have my up a and downs, but for the mostpart, my life is a lot better
 
bob

bob

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You have done amazing work Jbow. Life style changes are not easy. It take a real man to be able to accomplish this goal.

Know that I will continue to think of you in the future.

Peace
 
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Jbow

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This morning, u was watching tv, nothing in particular, and a sex scene came on, my dopamine shot up through the roof, and for 5 or 10 seconds I was thinking I need to see some porn, I mean I was even shaking a little  bit. The funny thing is, that it only lasted a few seconds,  and it was over. U can tell you what 2, or 3 months ago I would have been down at the pizza parlor on wifi surfing porn. What an accomplishment. It was no big deal. GOOD FOR ME. I'm changing, for the better
 
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Jbow

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Good morning gentlemen. I've been in kind of a slump for the past 103 days. That all changed last night. My wife came out to visit me on the couch, and things took a good turn. At any rate I was about 110 %,erect and it lasted for as long as I needed it to. I know I'm not cured, but it was soooooo awesome. That was encouragement for me to keep up the battle. I felt like I was 15. Thank god for reboot nation. I guess it's true, our minds can fix themselves, when given the chance.
 
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Jbow

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Here goes again.  I had a very tough couple of months, but I'm ready for a permanent change. I had a chance to pmo today, and I opted against it. I just need to stay busy outside. If I sit around in the house, I'm almost guaranteed to relapse.  Life us go9d. Every day I stay away from p9rn is a victory.
 
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Jbow

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Thank you dem.  It's been a bit over 2 weeks, and things are going good. Probably the toughest time for me is Friday and Saturday night after the family is in bed. So far I've held off the urges. I'm really sick of this battle. I want it to be over
I guess that's up to me huh. Keep strong, and don't give up.
 
lyon03

lyon03

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Don't give up Jbow! You and your family are worth it. Congratulations on 17 days brother. Keep going, keep posting, and keep encouraging others. PORN IS NOT AN OPTION.
 
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Jbow

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Thank you lyon. As I recall you and I started this process at exactly the same time. Congratulations you are having great success . It unfortunately taking me a few more tries.  I figure as long as I keep trying, eventually I will figure it out. Thanks again for the words of encouragement
 
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Jbow

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I can't believe it's been almost a month of sobriety.  I feel great. P is in the back if my mind most if the time.  The thing is , that I just don't give it a second thought.  Too much going on to dwell on it. Be strong brothers. Porn is not an option.
 
Abc

Abc

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Good to hear ! Hang in there and keep fighting ! I myself am on day 12 and doing great so far ! I like your quote "Porn is not an option" and I am going to put it to use. Have a great day !
 
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Jbow

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Thank you ABC for the words of encouragement. I'm on vacation right now, and I've been going from daylight to dark. I still get in my room at night, and I know I have free high speed wifi. I've been choosing to watch netflix,  or gary wilson. Things are really looking up for me.
 
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