NowFulfillYourDestiny
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"Now - Fulfill Your Destiny!"
My Destiny here is completing a 90 day reboot and then some without PMO. After that goal is reached I will assess and update this post. I am in my mid 30's and have been addicted to PMO since 13 or so due to having access to dirty magazines and dial-up internet without adult filters. Don't know that adult filters existed during the dial-up era I wasn't looking for them and never had to bypass one.
This is not my first no-PMO reboot attempt I have given it a go many times especially the last few years and have been trying since learning about NF in 2016. For me PMO has always been a form of stress relief much like every other addiction I have overcome and with each addiction removed it gets to a point that if you don't get set in healthy good habits for stress relief you are going to relapse on something. These brains of ours takes the path of least resistance working "smarter not harder" for itself so got to make it easier to healthily remove stress (edit) this is key and I associate this with maintaining longer no-PMO streaks in the past.
Stress relief with healthy and accessible hobbies became a must-have for me along with understanding our stress hormone cortisol and taking action to keep it low & regulated - all of which I will discuss in this journal when I get there (edit) though I would like to take a moment to speak on hobbies. The old, bad PMO activities to me had become a sort of a "secret hobby" of "bad habits" that is not good for me. There is still a thrill to my mind every time company leaves the house as if to say "hey you, now's the chance" - no thank you, Brain. This is my chance to discover & practice healthy new "secret & overt hobbies" alike, especially for the room I always did the dirty deed, the mind has to learn there is something better of value worth living for to it. My room has become a sanctuary for book reading and advanced calisthenics, and when I need to get out of it I have taught myself the hobby of preparing whole plant based foods full of carbs to power through my workouts and recovery time. Much stress relief simply in taking a walk, this has become my favorite parts of the day.
I started working towards a Nofap November this month on the 1st decided I would also like to pursue the 90 day reboot with all the help I can get so I registered with the forums here, I am determined to take responsibility for my life and turn things around.
What were my triggers? Reading the 4-letter P word on a computer, thinking about neighbor's wife that likes to look sexy, unblocking images on a website for petty reasons while said site is likely to flash NSFW content. (edit)
How did I soothe my anxiety or stress? Walking when the rain lets up.
What am I grateful for today? Rainy day trickling onto tin roof (edit) and people who give me difficulty day to day so I may take time to understand how to better live.
Day 21 no PMO
My Destiny here is completing a 90 day reboot and then some without PMO. After that goal is reached I will assess and update this post. I am in my mid 30's and have been addicted to PMO since 13 or so due to having access to dirty magazines and dial-up internet without adult filters. Don't know that adult filters existed during the dial-up era I wasn't looking for them and never had to bypass one.
This is not my first no-PMO reboot attempt I have given it a go many times especially the last few years and have been trying since learning about NF in 2016. For me PMO has always been a form of stress relief much like every other addiction I have overcome and with each addiction removed it gets to a point that if you don't get set in healthy good habits for stress relief you are going to relapse on something. These brains of ours takes the path of least resistance working "smarter not harder" for itself so got to make it easier to healthily remove stress (edit) this is key and I associate this with maintaining longer no-PMO streaks in the past.
Stress relief with healthy and accessible hobbies became a must-have for me along with understanding our stress hormone cortisol and taking action to keep it low & regulated - all of which I will discuss in this journal when I get there (edit) though I would like to take a moment to speak on hobbies. The old, bad PMO activities to me had become a sort of a "secret hobby" of "bad habits" that is not good for me. There is still a thrill to my mind every time company leaves the house as if to say "hey you, now's the chance" - no thank you, Brain. This is my chance to discover & practice healthy new "secret & overt hobbies" alike, especially for the room I always did the dirty deed, the mind has to learn there is something better of value worth living for to it. My room has become a sanctuary for book reading and advanced calisthenics, and when I need to get out of it I have taught myself the hobby of preparing whole plant based foods full of carbs to power through my workouts and recovery time. Much stress relief simply in taking a walk, this has become my favorite parts of the day.
I started working towards a Nofap November this month on the 1st decided I would also like to pursue the 90 day reboot with all the help I can get so I registered with the forums here, I am determined to take responsibility for my life and turn things around.
What were my triggers? Reading the 4-letter P word on a computer, thinking about neighbor's wife that likes to look sexy, unblocking images on a website for petty reasons while said site is likely to flash NSFW content. (edit)
How did I soothe my anxiety or stress? Walking when the rain lets up.
What am I grateful for today? Rainy day trickling onto tin roof (edit) and people who give me difficulty day to day so I may take time to understand how to better live.
Day 21 no PMO