Zukaikari
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I never know how to start a long post like this so I guess I'll just launch into it. This is actually my second go at this sight. I tried it a few years ago but I want really committed to it so I think I posted like 3 times and then quit. It's been a bit and my addiction has not changed in the least. I've been lying to my wife about this addiction basically forever. Every time I would get caught I would say I was going to quit and then immediately go back to it again. Honestly I'm not even sure what to do anymore. I'm going cold turkey right now but that's only because I don't have any actual way to get access. If I'm being honest with myself if I knew of a way to partake I know I would. My wife thinks it's because I don't think she's the most beautiful thing ever but I don't know how to explain she's wrong. I don't know how to fix what's wing with me. I need help but I don't know how too get it. We can't afford therapy right now and honestly I've had that before and it didn't stop me. How do I stop the constant needling in my brain that I need to go and look at these videos? I'm at a loss. I don't know what to do.