Hi All,
I have suffered from ED for as long as my first sexual encounter (I didn't really give it too much thought then, as the bigger picture of what was happening was too overwhelming... I was 21.)
Later, I started to notice that my erections weren't normal. Sometimes, as soon as I put on some porn, I would get that instant, strong erection, that would slowly fade until I involved my hands. Other times, it couldn't even get hard even if I felt aroused while watching porn, so I had to keep stroking and squeezing so it would get hard enough for my to climax, then go flaccid once again.
As the years went by, this "thing" started to take up a bigger space in my mind as I started dating and hooking up. My date, as well as myself, would find strange that, during foreplay and beyond, my dick wouldn't get hard, or partly, or that I'd start using my hand to masturbate it, even in its flaccid state, and that wasn't the best of feelings. Later, as a gay man, the only option left for me was to bottom, as I couldn't get it hard enough to top; Tried getting into a relationship, and ended up being cheated on, and then left. This did tremendous damage to my self-esteem and overall state, considering the other things that were happening in my life.
It is worth mentioning that i had been operated on my scrotum (I basically work with one testicle now, as the second one is not really functional) but the doctors said that everything was fine and that I could lead a healthy, happy life with only one ball.
Then I drowned in a tsunami of self-doubt, questioning and confusion, which required me to start taking the issue seriously. I couldn't possibly open up to a doctor about it, mainly because I don't really trust shrinks around where I live, most of whom got their degrees long before Internet porn addiction was even a thing. Secondly, I don't feel like coming out to a doctor, again, here where I live, and the only time I had to talk to a doctor about it (it was during a hormonal test, to check if the T levels are OK, etc) I had to explain the story as if I were a straight male. He lazily prescribed some erection pills and that was the end of it. So I had to do my own a research and I ended up discovering I suffered what they call PIED. I still doubted that as even with porn sometimes it would go limp unless I used my hand. Then I found out that if a man can have nocturnal erections and morning would, it means that organically speaking, everything is working. I do get firm morning wood and very healthy hard-ons during the night. But as soon as I wake up to pee, they disappear;
Long story short, I have gone through several NoFap attempts and always ended up breaking the streak. The longest was 4 months, at the end of which, with a partner, I still couldn't get an erection; I have however read that during a reboot, one should not edge, fantasize, through pictures or even mentally, or the reboot wouldn't be so efficient. Other than that, I am in a good shape, eat very healthy, exercise everyday, sleep well, don't smoke, don't drink and don't take any other form of drugs.
Now here I am, a desperate 33 yo virgin man who wants to recover. I broke a 1 month streak 2 days ago and masturbated 4 times since.
How much should the reboot last, does peeking on Instagram, Facebook, and outside count as relapse? How long should I go Hard Mode before experimenting with a partner? Does using pills help the recovery process? Is it really possible to recover???
Please help.
I have suffered from ED for as long as my first sexual encounter (I didn't really give it too much thought then, as the bigger picture of what was happening was too overwhelming... I was 21.)
Later, I started to notice that my erections weren't normal. Sometimes, as soon as I put on some porn, I would get that instant, strong erection, that would slowly fade until I involved my hands. Other times, it couldn't even get hard even if I felt aroused while watching porn, so I had to keep stroking and squeezing so it would get hard enough for my to climax, then go flaccid once again.
As the years went by, this "thing" started to take up a bigger space in my mind as I started dating and hooking up. My date, as well as myself, would find strange that, during foreplay and beyond, my dick wouldn't get hard, or partly, or that I'd start using my hand to masturbate it, even in its flaccid state, and that wasn't the best of feelings. Later, as a gay man, the only option left for me was to bottom, as I couldn't get it hard enough to top; Tried getting into a relationship, and ended up being cheated on, and then left. This did tremendous damage to my self-esteem and overall state, considering the other things that were happening in my life.
It is worth mentioning that i had been operated on my scrotum (I basically work with one testicle now, as the second one is not really functional) but the doctors said that everything was fine and that I could lead a healthy, happy life with only one ball.
Then I drowned in a tsunami of self-doubt, questioning and confusion, which required me to start taking the issue seriously. I couldn't possibly open up to a doctor about it, mainly because I don't really trust shrinks around where I live, most of whom got their degrees long before Internet porn addiction was even a thing. Secondly, I don't feel like coming out to a doctor, again, here where I live, and the only time I had to talk to a doctor about it (it was during a hormonal test, to check if the T levels are OK, etc) I had to explain the story as if I were a straight male. He lazily prescribed some erection pills and that was the end of it. So I had to do my own a research and I ended up discovering I suffered what they call PIED. I still doubted that as even with porn sometimes it would go limp unless I used my hand. Then I found out that if a man can have nocturnal erections and morning would, it means that organically speaking, everything is working. I do get firm morning wood and very healthy hard-ons during the night. But as soon as I wake up to pee, they disappear;
Long story short, I have gone through several NoFap attempts and always ended up breaking the streak. The longest was 4 months, at the end of which, with a partner, I still couldn't get an erection; I have however read that during a reboot, one should not edge, fantasize, through pictures or even mentally, or the reboot wouldn't be so efficient. Other than that, I am in a good shape, eat very healthy, exercise everyday, sleep well, don't smoke, don't drink and don't take any other form of drugs.
Now here I am, a desperate 33 yo virgin man who wants to recover. I broke a 1 month streak 2 days ago and masturbated 4 times since.
How much should the reboot last, does peeking on Instagram, Facebook, and outside count as relapse? How long should I go Hard Mode before experimenting with a partner? Does using pills help the recovery process? Is it really possible to recover???
Please help.
